Everything Is Fine Now

I'm so worry before this...
nearly cry after chatting with udin on ym...
but as I said to him....
I really control myself not to let the tears drop.....
and try my best to sattle this mess....
finally....
everything is alright now....
such a release....
whew....

The Taste of Missing Someone

What is the taste of missing someone?
sour?
bitter?
sweet?
nobody knows and understand or esle you have go through this stage....
whether it make you happier or vice versa....
again....
only the person that experience it knows....

Jing Si Aphorism 4

若能缩小自己，就能走入他人的心中；一旦走入他的心中，他人就会尊重你、爱你。
If we can shrink our egos, we will be able to have a place in people's hearts and they will naturally respect and love us.

证严法师静思语
By Master Cheng Yen

New Template

I finally found the template that suit my taste....
it's simple and nice.....
just like me....
a simple person.....
so is it nice?
I need opinion from you all...
thanks ya....
^^

Apology

Sorry for can't telling you the truth....
Sorry for everything....
really sorry for that....
I've to keep my promise....
It's my fault to ask you that question....
just a few moment in the class...
you stop talking to me....
stop asking me question....
I'm not so comfortable actually....
I can't stand it....
you are such a good friend....
I always can learn a lots of things from you...
but this time I've upset you....
sorry.....

Happy Day^^

Today I'm really happy....
laughing all the time in the class and making noise in the class....
Miss Yoges(my physics tutor) really noticed I'm so active today....
3 things make me so happy today....
first....
of course is Chinese New Year coming...
second....
I've one week off for Chinese New Year...
third(the happiest of all)....
I'M GOING TO MEET AISYAH THIS SATURDAY!!!!!!
if nothing happen...
finally we can meet....
after nearly 1 year separated with her....
miss her so much!!!!
The happiest moment in secondary school time....


p/s: he is still so sick....really hope he can recover soon.....

UBF Chinese New Year Night

Last minute just decided to go for UBF(Universiti Tenaga Nasional Buddist Fellowship) CNY night at Buddhist House, Kajang....
we have a lot of fun there....
eating, playing games, using angpau to decorate the "tree", writing new year card for our family...
of course last but not least....
wishing each others Happy Chinese New Year....
as your info....
the coming year is Ox Year....
ohya....
surprisingly 2 Vietnamese also joined us in this CNY night...
and both of them can speak chinese...
and one of them speak fluently...
wow....

As in the games session....
I loss in the game...
so being punish by doing some action(cute face, angry face, sad face.....bla bla bla) in front of the camera....
so embarrassing....
I don't know who will get all the photos/video that being taken by the senior....
ahhhh.....
malunye~~~~~
~blushing~


My CE senior---Evon and our decorated "tree"....^^

Chemistry Test 2....

Just finished my chemistry test 2 paper....
the questions were quite tough for me.....
although before this Dr Rose had gave us quiz about ch6&7...
the question in quiz is quite similar with this test....
but my bad....
I still not confidence with my answer....
I got really pelik answer....
hmmm.....
as usual....
MCQ again making me a headache.....
then have to use the same technique to attack MCQ again....
tikam....
but still will think about it before tikam...

I don't think I can score well in this paper....
hope I've mentally prepared to get not good result for this.....
or esle I'll have a big disappoinment....
and my mood will down for very long time....
so I better be prepared to accept the worst result first....

~complicated feeling~

Time Table for Semester 3

Time table for my sem 3 come out already...
but only 4 subject inside it....
still not included Moral class and Territory Army class....
so it still will change from time to time....
but I quite satisfied with it...
because no more class at 8am everyday....
and I get the lecturer that I want....
and also I got 1 class same as udin....
so happy right now.....
^^

Full....

Finally finished my calculus test 2....
as Mdm Zarina said...
all the questions were quite easy....
before taking the test...
I'm so nervous....
first time so nervous to take the test....
I don't know why....
but when I browse through the questions....
I think I can score in this test....

Just after the test....
I joined my bro and his friends--my seniors...
went to a chinese restaurant to have my dinner....
the food not so delicious....
boleh tahan je....
but during the whole meal....
a lot of laughter created by all my seniors....
really funny....
especially one of the senior...
his name is Ah Soon...
always being joked by the others just because he has really small eyes....
and when wanna take his picture....
nearly can't see his eyes....
^^

~a quite satisfying day~

burb.....
I'm so full now....

Tired

Just finished revising my calculus chapter 6.5....
my eyes wanna pop out already...
today so tired...
the 7 hours non-stop classes really make me exhausted....
now everybody is so busy...
busy studying...
therefore nobody to chat with....
so I just "chat" with my blog....
sounds weird right?
but how to do if no one to talk with you?
so just express the feeling here....

when I prepared my dinner just now...
I nearly cut my finger....
luckily just left a small cut on my nail...
but if it go deeper...
I sure have a plaster on my finger now....
really don't know why I'm so clumsy today....
hmmm.....

1 more day then is my calculus test 2....
really hope I can also score in this test....
hoping can get a much better result in this sem....
hoping and praying....

Chosen the right path...

Just a few minutes....
I've satisfied....
really cherish that few minutes...
after so many days...
finally....
before that I just say about it....
then the next minute my dream come true....

I think I've chosen the right path to act as normal....
because I'm a person that...
emmm...
how to say....
if I wanna do something....
I'll put in my whole heart inside it....
put in my whole effort into it....
and I'll not distracted by anything....
so when I facing the junction of my life...
I've chosen the path that benefit me the most....
maybe at the corner of my heart....
calling me to choose another pathway.....
but I perfer to ignore it....
when the right time comes....
the time that the junction changes to a straight road....
I'll accept the calling of my heart....

Jing Si Aphorism 3

人要知福、惜福、再造福
Realize you are blessed, and cherish these blessings. Then continue to cultivate more blessings.

证严法师静思语
By Master Cheng Yen

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This is the first Jing Si Aphorism that I know since I was young....
before this I not so understand the meaning...
but until today...
this sentence will always appears in my life....
especially "cherish all the blessings"....
I'm a really lucky child....
I've all the things I want and I've a happy family that love me so much.....
really appreciate and cherish all the love that they give me.....
^^

Chinese New Year Home Cleaning

Last weekend my bro suddenly decided to go back hometown....
ok...
fine...
because I sure will follow him....
then...
it is a quite busy weekend for me and my mum....
chinese new year is coming....
so it is the time to clean up the whole house....

Friday night...
helping my mum to remove all the curtains in my house....
Saturday morning....
cleaning up my bedroom's stand-fan....
cleaning up my piano and polishing the keyboard....
putting the camphor ball inside the piano....
Saturday night...
putting on all the curtains back to its normal position....

Actually many of things haven't do yet....
all the windows haven't wipe yet....
my house really have many windows...
I wanna help my mum to clean it up but she said it's too early to clean it...
so that's all I help with my mum....

p/s: Actually wanna post the pix, but the stupid blogger....arghhhh....

Weird KFC Meal...

I just came back from The Mines....
going with my housemates(Jinnie, Sim and Kin Ling) and another CE senior--Ah Tan(the driver)....
in the car...
Jinnie suggested we go to eat KFC...
so we all agreed....
me and my housemates ordered snack plate whereas Ah Tan ordered dinner plate....
ok...
let's eat....
wait....
why is the pepsi does not taste like pepsi??
there is a weird taste....
I also don't know how to explain..
just not the taste of the original pepsi....
seems like the pepsi had mix with others drinks.....
after Jinnie tasted Sim's pepsi....
she suddenly said, "Why have the taste of ginger in your drinks???"
GINGER?????
so now...
can you imagine how weird is the pepsi????
at last...
most of us didn't finish the drink.....
ohya....
one more thing...
one of the pieces of chicken from Ah Tan's dinner plate is not well cooked....
what happen to the KFC today???
really make us quite disappointed....
hmmmm.....

By the way....
thanks Ah Tan as our driver....
^^

Jing Si Aphorism 2

心要日日如春天那样美，如春天那样温和，将心中的爱毫无保存地盛放开来。
Everyday, let us harbor a warm and beautiful heart from which love blossoms and radiates forth unhesitatingly.

证严法师静思语
By Master Cheng Yen

Jing Si Aphorism

From today onwards...
I'll post 1 Jing Si Aphorism each day....
this is the aphorism by Dharma Master Cheng Yen--the founder of Tzu Chi Foundation and Tzu Chi's worldwide charity program....

与人相处共事，不要有计较的心态，否则徒然消耗气力与才能，虚度时日。
We must refrain from a petty mindset and bickering, otherwise we will waste our strength, talents and precious time.

For more information about Tzu Chi Foundation...
you can click on this link....
http://www.tzuchimalacca.com/

Happy Again...

Such a release....
happy again....
actually is me think too much....
hahaha....
such a fool....
anything is just fine here....
thanks for all the friends that worry about me....
I'm totally ok now....
^^
now gonna start to study....
tomorrow have physics and chemistry quiz...
wish me good luck ya....

My Favourite Song....

Westlife--My Love

An empty street, an empty house
I hold inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

Chorus:
So I say a litter prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where skies are blue, to see you once again...my love
Over sea to coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...my love

I try to read, I know the work
I left them with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a litter prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where skies are blue, to see you once again...my love
Over sea to coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of

Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a litter prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where skies are blue, to see you once again...my love
Over sea to coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...my love

Say a litter prayer(my sweet love)
Dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again....my love
Over sea to coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...My Love

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This is the first song that I love so much since I was in Primary 6...
This is the first song that I love so much since I played it with my saxophone....
This is the first song that I memorised as my primear song when everytime I play my saxophone...
Love this song so much....
and certain of the lyrics can really express my feeling now....

How to do?

For the whole night...
I can't resist myself to think about it....
thought wanna wake up at 4am....
but my tired mind....
keep my asleep until 6.30am....
just can't control myself....
keep thinking about it....
keep thinking....
keep thinking....
keep thinking wanna say out the truth or not....
keep thinking wanna hid it forever or not....
keep thinking how to control myself don't think about it....
keep thinking how to resist myself.....
many things waiting for me to do....
I can't keep up like this....
I can't...
Quizzes coming....
Tests coming....
Final coming....
Sem 2 ending....
so many things....
and why my mind until now still can't settle down for all those???
and why I still keep thinking now???
I really don't like this kind of me....
it is not like me.....
but how can I do???


~confused hq~
6/1/2009

被隐藏的心里话

Sorry for all my friends....
this post is gonna be in chinese....
just because I really need chinese to express my feeling now....
so if you all don't understand it...
the only thing I can say is sorry.....

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终于见到他了
心中的兴奋不言而喻
虽然我们每天都有在网上聊天
但是
见面说话是那么的真实
喜欢听他那还蛮温柔的声音
喜欢听他说笑
不知怎的
开始一点点地喜欢了

他再次地问我
我找到了答案吗
我只能回答还没有
虽然在我心中那答案已经呼之欲出了
我不能回答他
以他现在的状况
他根本不能接受这一切
我不想就因为我的一句话、一个答案
而成为了他心理的负担
其实
胆小的我也怕
就因为那么一个答案
就让我失去了他这么一位朋友
在我的生命当中
友谊是永远排在家人之后
我拥有了爱我的家人
所以朋友我更不能失去

所以
我衷心地希望
他能明白我的苦心
我愿意把那答案隐藏在我心里
直到适当的时候
我才会说出来

Love--It's So Complicated

I'm not taken by somebody yet....
I really not understand....
how does it feel when someone love you so much...
how does it feel when love someone so much.....
how is the feeling of broken heart....
how is the feeling of being forced by so many circumstances to say goodbye....

Love...
a wonderful thing in our life...
it sometimes can be so complicated...
and yet...
it sometimes can also be so easy....
a bitter memory in my primary school...
just let me know a bit about love....
is me, myself ruin the whole thing....
but no regret....
let it be the past....

Let me quote a sentence inside Celine Dion's song "That's The Way It Is"
"Love comes to those who believe it..."
yes...
I believe in love...
so....
I'm waiting for my love now.....

Quite funny Tag by Zul

Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged.

Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.


Dear ________(the last person who left a comment on your blog/journal):


I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .


___12___,

-Your name-





Fill in the blanks with choices of answers as below:


1. What's the color of your shirt?

Blue- Our romance is over

Red- Our affair is over

White- I'll join the monastery

Black- I dislike you

Green - Our horoscope doesn't match

Grey - You're a pervert

Yellow - I'm selling myself

Pink - Your nostrils are insulting

Brown - The mafia wants you

No shirt - You're a loser

Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?

January - That night

February - Last year

March - When your dwarf bit me

April - When I tripped on sesame seeds

May - First of May

June - When you put cuffs on me

July - When I threw up

August - When I saw the shrunken head

September - When we skinny dipped

October - When I quoted Santa

December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?

Taco - In your apartment

Pizza - In your camping car

Pasta - Outside of Chicago

Hamburgers - Under the bus

Salad - As you ate enchilada

Chicken - In your closet

Kebab - With Paris Hilton

Fish - In women's clothing

Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation

Lasagna - At the mental hospital

Hot dog - Under a state of trance

None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?

Yellow - Hit on

Red - Insult

Black - Ignore

Blue - Knock out

Purple - Pour syrup on

White - Carve your initials into

Grey - Pull the clothes off

Brown - Put leeches on

Orange - Castrate

Pink - Pull the toupee off

Barefoot - Sit on

Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?

Black - My best friend

White - My father

Brown - My fart balloon

Purple - My mustard soufflé

Red - Donald Duck

Blue - My avocado plant(eeww)

Yellow - My penpal in Ghana

Orange - My Kid Rock-collection

Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper

None - My John F. Kennedy-statue

Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?

Scrubs - Man

O.C. - Emotional

One Tree Hill - Open

Heroes - Frostbitten

Lost - High

House - Scared

Simpsons - Cowardly

The news - Mongolic

Idol - Masochistic

Family Guy - Senile

Top Model - Middle-class



7. Your mood right now?

Happy - How awful I've felt

Sad - How boring you are

Bored - That Santa doesn't exist

Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage

Depressed - That we're cousins

Excited - That there is no solution to this

Worried - That your Honda sucks

Apathetic - That I did a sex-change

Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster

Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men

Overjoyous - That I'm open

Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?

White - Your ring

Yellow - Your love letters

Red - Your Darth Vader-poster

Black - Your tame stone

Blue - The couch cushions

Green - The pictures from LA

Orange - Your false teeth

Brown - Your contact book

Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs

Purple - Your old lottery coupons

Pink - How awful I've felt




9. The first letter of your first name?

A/B - Your photo

C/D - The oil stocks

E/F - Your neighbour Martin

G/H - My virginity

I/J - The results of your blood-sample

K/L - Your left ear

O/P - My common sense

Q/R - Your mom

S/T - Your collection of butterflies

U/V - Your criminal record

W/X - David's tricot outfits

Y/Z - Your grades from college


10. The last letter in your last name?

A/B - Hate your guts

C/D - Never will forget

E/F - Always wanted to break

I/J - Always have felt dirty before

K/L - Will tell the authorities about

M/N - Told in my confession today about

O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about

Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about

S/T - Get sick when I think of

U/V - Always will try to forget

W/X - Am better off without

Y/Z - Never liked


11. What do you prefer to drink?

Water- Our friendship

Beer - Senility

Soft drink - A new life as a clone

Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo

Milk - The apartment building

Wine - Cocaine abuse

Cider - A passionate interest for mice

Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations

Mineral water - Embarrassing rash

Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism

Whisky - To ruin the second world war


12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?

Thailand - Warm regards

USA - Best regards

Spain - Go and drown yourself

China - Disgusting regards

Germany - With ease

Japan - Go burn

Greece - Your everlasting enemy

Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard

Egypt - Fuck off now

France - In pain


The result:

Dear Udin:


I don't really know how to tell you this, but Our horoscope doesn't match . I think I realized it When I changed tennis shoes In women's clothing and I saw you Sit on Manchester United's goalkeeper. I'm sure you're Emotional enough to understand How awful I've felt. I'm returning Your ring to you, but I'll keep The oil stocks as a memory. You should also know that I Told in my confession today about Our friendship .


In pain,

Heqing


kakakakakaka....=D

5 people I wanna tagged:
udin
iefa
arm
zie
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wth izzit?
hahahaha...
just for fun.....
no offend....
^^

Happy Birthday Udin

I'm the 1st person to wish him on his friendster testi....
but I'm the 12th person to wish him through phone....
hahahaha....
no matter what....
still have to wish udin....
Happy 19th Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!

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SABGS Muar PMR 2008 Result

After reading Udin's lastest post...
I just remember 30th December2008 is the big day for all the Form3 students....
The result of my school is listed as below:

Students that get Straight A's: 51
Peratus Kelulusan Keseluruhan: 96.3%
Peratus Kelulusan Setiap Subjek:
Bahasa Melayu: 100%
Bahasa Inggeris: 97.9%
Bahasa Cina : 100%
Bahasa Tamil: 100%
Bahasa Arab: 100%
Geografi: 100%
Kemahiran Hidup: 100%
Sejarah: 98.8%
Pendidikan Islam: 99.4%
Matematik: 99.2%
Sains: 99.6%

I'm wondering why so few people...cakap ada 51 pelajar dapat straight A's...but....maybe some of them haven't come back from holidays...hahaha....(This pix is taken from http://www.sinchew.com.my/)

addition for this...
we are No3 in Daerah Muar....
No 1 is High School Muar(with Peratus Kelulusan Keseluruhan 99.05%)....
but the most important thing is.....
WE BEAT CONVENT MUAR..............AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WELL DONE ALL THE JUNIORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Outing

Just because of my bro don't want to go back hometown....
so although I have 4 days holidays....
but I still stay in Uniten....
after thinking for a while....
I decided to go out with my hometown friend--shuhui.....
we wanna shop, shop and shop at Sg Wang and Times Square.....
with another 3 guys and 1 girl....
we departed at 10am....
then shop until 5pm just come back...
damn tired but contented...
I bought 2 new shirts for my preparation of Chinese New Year....
now all things settle...
and I'm waiting for Chinese New Year.....
^^