Material Lab

Today having our very first material lab....
at first really blur...
because we are still new to the lab...
we can't even find the things...

the most special phenomena in the Civil Engineering lab is...
we can hardly sit down...
we can hardly find chairs too....

we are doing the fine and coarse aggregates sieving today...
I thought we just do one time only...
but then we have to do three times...
each times 15 minutes...
luckily we have the mechine to help us do the sieving...
before this I thought can go back earlier...
but we spent also 3 hours to do the lab...
XD

the sieves and the mechine....

Finally met...

my very best friend during secondary school time--Lia
how to describe her?
she is always happy and laughing all the way...
loves yellow very much...
harry potter fanatic...(same as me...^^)
year 2011 going to Japan ady...
currently studying mechanical engineering....

I finally met her last saturday when I went back to my hometown...
watched Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince...
although that movie really makes me disappointed...
but then...
really happy and excited to meet her up again after 1 year...
after the movie..
we went shopping and finally I bought a pair of shoes that I have been searching since last year....

hoping next time 3 of us can meet (Aisyah, Lia and me)...
because I miss the time when "Three of us will make a pasar...." (quoted from my secondary school chemistry teacher--Pn Chong)
^^,

Overloaded

Today when I went to the Green Camp booth...
Ah Tan and Karren told me...
booth is closed...
we have enough people for the Green Camp...
and is overloaded....
our target is 50 people...
but now we have 60...
really shocked that will have so many people joining us...
thanks for the support...

p/s: thanks also FlyFM Myvi Trooper...^^

AutoCAD

Just now was my 2nd autoCAD lab...
nothing changed...
same as last week class....
I'm really really blur....
in order to do well in autoCAD...
you have to be very good in coordinate...
and my coordinate really weak since Form 2...
I really faced many problem...
3 hours lab...
before started the first class...
we thought that 3 hours is a waste...
but then...
today I left the lab at 6 o'clock (class from 2-5pm)....
the whole class left me and San only...
really...
haiz....

but just now I try to do that assignment again...
what am I blur-ing just now?
I done it quite fast...
really hope next week will be better...
I don't want spent 4 hours in the lab again...

Be Ready

If you wanna be a leader...
please prepare yourself...
be ready to accept and expect all kinds of criticism...
no matter in front of the crowd or behind you...
this is a cruel world...
outside there...
nobody will keep their unpleasent although you are a leader...

痛

我以为我好了
已经没事了
可
事实证明
我还是无法面对

痛
心痛
心真得好痛

真想找个地方躲起来
不要再见了
可是
人还是要面对现实

给我点时间
好吗

送爱之旅--KKB残智障院 (KKB Handicap Hospital)

KKB Taman Sinar Harapan 残智障院
~人间炼狱有温情~
那是一个与我们完全不同的世界，他们不能像平常人一样，能自由走动，能蹦蹦跳跳，能自己吃饭，他们只能长年累月躺在床上，不能走也不能动；也许，他们一生的奢望就是可以到外面呼吸一口新鲜的空气。。。他们就是在KKB残智障院里的残智障病人。

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昨天起了一个大早，有多早呢？清晨5.30就起身了。身为慈青的我，再次的参与了慈济的关怀行动，就是到KKB残智障院探望那些不幸的残智障病人。可是，我们都不叫他们病人，而是“菩萨”。因为就是他们所显现众生的苦难，让我们上了一堂生命教育的课，让我们更珍惜现在拥有的一切。

差不多9.30到达了那里，起初还没有什么感觉，但是当我们到一间又一间的病房探望时，一股莫名的辛酸涌上心头。他们有些幸运的就能到处走动，可是大多数的他们，终日就只能面对着铁床的支架，根本无法看到外面的世界。有些病情严重的，医护人员无奈的只好用布条或铁链绑着他们，因为他们不但会伤害自己，也会伤害到其他人。也许大众会觉得好不人道，可是又有什么办法呢？

当我们跟着师伯到另一间病房时，我们就唱歌给他们听。看到他们满足的笑容及开心的和我们一起拍掌，才发现，原来仅仅使用肢体语言就能把我们的爱穿出去了，那是多么多么的简单啊。

而在这间残智障院的最后一位小孩，师姑和我们简单的讲解为什么她会来到这里。她是一位非常可爱、漂亮、聪明的的小女孩，就在她的父母吵架时，他的父母竟然忍心将她从楼上丢下来，大命不死的她，将要面对的就是终身的残缺。她的头壳一边是扁的，一双脚也永远不能站立了。想想看，当人气在上头时所能作出的事，根本是你无法想象的。把自己亲身的孩子对下楼，这么可怕的行为，真的让人不寒而栗。

用完了午斋，我们就回去了。这趟送爱之旅，真的让我体会了很多。就像证言上人时常提醒的，"知福、惜福、再造福”，知道自己所拥有的一切，不可身在福中不知福；珍惜自己所拥有的一切；而善用自己所拥有的来帮助其他需要帮助的人。

#天上最美的是星星，人间最美的是温情#

如果有一天，你再也见不到我

你再也找不到我的身影时，
你是否会怪我将思念如此轻易放逐？
在你背转身的时候，
悄悄地、悄悄地从你身后逃离。。。
就此消失在苍茫的尘世间，
再也没任何消息与提示。

而当那一天终于无可避免时，
你是否会将自己的心情重新调整，
将记忆默默的收藏起来，
就在一个旁人无法触及的角落里，
你已经将我深深的藏好了，
从此不再让任何人问起你我的过往。

也许爱你，
总是我最深的叹息和无奈，
也许爱我，
亦是你最无奈的苦恼和叹息，
而你我之间缠着的情丝，却是我们相爱的悲哀与矛盾，
一阵来自北方的飘忽的风，
恋上了一只南方的孤傲的雁，
梦与理想的距离亦是天南地北，不可契合。

纵然是爱到深处再无怨尤，
纵情情到深时必有说不清的冲突与挣扎，
所以，你我的相爱之路，
才会是那么的艰难和困惑，
不断的徘徊在取舍之间，
不停的奔波在思念边缘，
直到你我都能清晰感觉到，
那份疲惫与乏累悄悄逼进，
正在逐渐吞噬着我岌岌可危的爱情。

或许，在所有的心情平静以后，
你和我之间，再也无法维系着那一份残缺，
再也无法去守望那一段无痕的岁月，
终于。。。终于。。。
让一切矛盾都画下了句号。

天空中再也没有眼泪，
只因我已飞过，
一生的执著亦是一生的伤痛，
断断续续的思绪，
是不是也期待着一种永恒呢，
哪怕只会是悲伤的延续。

载自：http://www.kanunu.cn/article/pic/comic/200708/744.html

Alamanda Putrajaya

11 o'clock in the morning...
udin came and fetch me at murni with zul and another friend inside his car..
well...
basically we headed to Alamanda to seek for sponsors...
and udin said we have to dress smart...
and I'm a good girl...
I listened to my ketua (udin)...
and took out the black blouse that I bought for the last chinese new year...
I haven't wear that blouse before...
because I think that blouse is for very important occassion...
but then if go to meet the manager...
certainly have to wear smart...
and first thing udin saw me...
he said I'm very beautiful today...
hahaha....
thanks ya, friend....

when we reached Alamanda....
we tried to go around to target some sponsors....
but then at last only Golden Screen Cinema have our proposal...
others we have to mail to the headquarter...
done with our work...
we have our lunch at Kenny Roger...
a very full meal...
then we watch Transformer: Revenge of The Fallen...
undeniable...
this movie really best...
I really enjoy it...

after buying Big Apple Donuts....
surprisingly the cashier of the Big Apple Donuts said I looks like korean (because of my dressing...)...
really shock and segan lo...
then I just smile back to them....
XD
then is the time to go back...
because of our dear driver don't know the way back...
we turned round and round the putrajaya housing estate for 3 times...
really no comment about this...
hahaha...
but then luckily reached uniten safely...
XD

at Kenny Roger...with my quarter meal....^^

ICE Green Camp Booth

Yesterday heading to BA to set up the Green Camp booth...
but then no board for us to put up all the things...
so thanks to Ah Tan giving us a ride to BM to set up the booth there first....

first we completed drawing our logo--The Little Man...
then we started to put up the "Green Camp" words using the green colour straws....
after that cucuk the theme "Rise of The Green Nation"...
and used different colour of chalk to decorate and writing on the sugar paper...
hmmm...
the booth ok ok only la...
because that is our first try...
hope our BA booth will improve lo....
^^


Welcome all uniten student to visit our booth at BA and BM starting next week...
and hope you all to join us in this camp...

过山车的心情

真的有点受不了自己
之前还无法释怀
现在竟然有松了一口气的感觉
两天就解决了问题
虽然得到了答案的那一刻有点错愕
可是
并没有想象中那么伤心
拜我的直觉所赐吧
想象中的答案和现实中的答案
竟然一模一样
也许
彼此各退一步
离开了朋友和情人间的界线
回到各自之前的位置
是最适合的选择

无论如何
付出的爱
永远收不回
心中的缺口
需要时间来愈合
幸运的是
彼此还没那么深入这份感情
否则
爱得越深
伤得越重

但这一刻的我决定了
从此无欲无求
一切顺其自然
因为
心如止水才能看透一切

哭了

昨夜
睡了一个非常不安稳的觉
脑海中
浮现的都是昨天那擦身而过的你
突然间
好后悔没回头叫你
好后悔没回身看看你的背影
好后悔当时假装没事的和朋友高声谈天

今晨
从睡梦中醒来
发现枕边湿湿的
发觉眼睛涩涩的
原来
我第一次为了你而哭了

在彼此没有联络的第一天
我生病了
真的病了
头好痛
鼻涕一直流
唉。。。。

当我见到你的那一刹那
第一个念头就是想逃走
对不起
我不知道怎么面对你
在你还没找到答案之前
我不想成为你的负担
也不想因为我而扰乱了你的思绪

你知道吗
当我转移视线
看着地上时
而你和我擦身而过
我多么希望你对我说声“嗨”
可是
我听到的
只有你那熟悉的脚步声
越走越远
越走越远

现在
我唯一能做的事
就是等待
等待那一份答案
也许会再伤心一次
但至少我知道
知道了你真正的想法
知道了你真正想要的是什么

虽然不知等待的日子有多长
但我会一直等下去
等到我真的撑不下去的那一天

Started

Today started my first sem of first year degree...
so many things have to do...
but due to too many people...
I have to settle all tomorrow...

by the way...
my advance calculus lecturer--Dr Abu Bakar also known as "Dr Burn"...
wondering is he a good lecturer...
hmmm...
and my civil engineering materials lecturer--Dr Shibli...
according to his description of this subject...
the cement, the aggregate, the concrete, the bituminous materials, the timber, the steel...
I really can't wait to study all that...
really looking forward of this subject...
^^

Back in Uniten

Finally back in uniten...
so tired...
about 12 noon check in Murni...
first time come here...
the room is quite big compared to Ilmu single room...
and quite clean also...
after arranging all the things...
meet my bro and headed for our lunch...
and after that...
my parents went back ady...
holidays end...
new sem start...
hope tomorrow will be a better day...
^^

Holidays end...

Tomorrow morning going back to uniten...
3 weeks holidays officially ended...
no more sleeping till afternoon...
no more tv shows from day to night...
no more delicious dishes from mum...
waiting in front of me is a whole new semester in my 1st year degree...
7 subjects with a total of 16 credit hours...
drafting, drafting lab, material, material lab, statics I, advance calculus and malaysian studies...
hope can do really well in the following semester....

by the way...
just now packing and sorting out my things...
omg...
I have reduced the things to bring...
but as a result...
you will know when looking at the photo below...

well...
some still not in the photo...
so imagine how many things I have...
XD

bye bye to the study room at my home (quite messy actually...)....no worry...I'll be back...hehe...

Countdown

So many things happened this holidays...
a lot of changes...
well...
some is really unexpected...
^^
anyway...
got my result...
not so good...
kinda disappointed though...
got my apartment...
but no idea who will be my housemates...
got my sem 1 time table...
I don't want friday class...
but no choice...
no add and drop session for us...
overall this holidays just keep resting...
everyday sleep and eat and TV shows....
kinda boring but I sure will miss this holidays...
begining to pack and arrange all my things...
few more days to go for my holidays...
and it's time to go back...
to start a brand new life...
looking forward this...