With Satisfaction....

How many days of nightmare?
How many days of worry?
I can't count....
but now...
really satisfied....
thanks God...
I promise will do my very best in sem 3...
^^

Met Again....

24/2/2009--my secondary school's sports day

I went back my secondary school again....
met all my teachers and juniors again....
^^
honestly....
my juniors really lucky....
besides having all the new instruments....
now....
a well-equipped band room....
they have the brand new cabinets for all the instruments, uniform, music scores, accessories and many more....
really jealous...
hope they will appreciate all the things they have now....
hope they will use wisely all the instruments....
and hope they really perform in their performance and competitions.....

the brand new build-in cabinets...so jealous...

p/s: no photos for the band sports day performance....kept chatting with my teachers...forgot to take it...T_T

Fear

What is the feeling when your mind is being conquered by fear??
Will you worry until every night have nightmare??
Will you worry until everything can't be done??
Will you worry until can't fell asleep??
Will you have a sudden cry when you know about the date of the result come out??
Will you.....??
Will you.....??

True Friend

"Your thoughts have been conquered by fear. Don't let fear takes over your mind. Be positive."
this quote is quoted from Richard Robinson, a well-known UK poet....
I don't know before this....
but after the message....
I suddenly realise....
there is a true friend that always be there to encourage me....
there is a true friend that always makes me learn more....
there is a true friend that always will listen to my worries....
and many many more....
maybe always is me stand forward to seek for the help....
always is me keep bothering you....
but....
thanks for replying me...
thanks for making me become more confident again...
thanks for everything....
^^
Friend Forever!!!

Lost and Found

Shopping with my parents....
really long time didn't shop with them....
finally....
I found the feeling of happiness and laughter back....
since I come to university...
my dad...
hmmm....
not strict as before...
he totally changed....
and he become really funny....
just now when we were buying the milk powder...
he suddenly suggested to buy Anlene for me....
Anlene????
For me????
(although the packet there have label for 19-50 years old)
but still very weird....
me???
Anlene???
wth.....
after my dad's suggestion....
my mum and me straight away burst into laughter....
luckily my dad changes his target....
finally we bought Fernleaf instead of Anlene.....
whew....

by the way...
my bro came back..
and he just gave me a news...
my Green camp Logo not the choice of the seniors....
actually feel a bit disappointed....
but it's ok....
just let it be one of the experience of mine....
really looking forward for this Green Camp.....
^^

My Biggest Enemy (Part 3--The End)

Yes!!!
I've won in this battle!!!
but I'm in a great suffer on the previous days.....
T_T
here are some of my advices...
take breakfast regularly...
sleep early...
wake up on time...
don't be like me...
I'm a bad example....
don't copy me ya.....
^^

Tagged by Udin

Five things that you wish to do during holidays:
~sleep all the time
~eat all the time
~watch tv show all the time
~play piano all the time
~online all the time (can't fulfil this....)

What do you have at home that makes you happy:
~storybooks
~laptop
~piano
~sony LCD TV
~aircond....=D

Five things that you hate about holidays:
~it will end very fast
~boring
~can't go out even though very boring
~lonely
~leave a mess on my sleeping time

What makes you hate them:
~I can't rest anymore
~don't know what to do....study? hmmm...not a good idea
~no transport for me...my dad and mum needs it to go to school....
~no friends to loiter around...
~I can hardly adjust back after going back to uniten...T_T

What holidays stands for:
[H] - home sweet home
[O] - oldies piano pieces (easier to play...don't need to use much energy...^^)
[L] - lying on the bed all the time
[I] - imagine all kinds of weird things....
[D] - day-dreaming
[A] - avoid from having gastric again....T_T
[Y] - yawning
[S] - sleeping

What movies do you wanna watch next:
~Underworld 3
~The Pink Panther 2
~Bride Wars

Five things that you'll do next, once you've done this tag:
~watch drama series
~brush my teeth
~wash my face
~read storybooks/novel
~sleep

List of five people you wish to tag:
~zul
~haziq
~iefa
~ija

My Biggest Enemy (Part 2)

Three days....
first time suffered for so long time....
gastric + diarrhoea...
really like hell....
can't eat....
can't even sleep....
after eating feel like wanna vomit...
totally disaster....
T_T

but finally...
now I feel better...
thanks for my mum for giving me massage...
although still a little pain at my stomach area...
but really better than previous day....
whew....

My Biggest Enemy

Gosh...
who can help me????
I'm really in a great suffer now....
my biggest enemy....
why it comes in this few days???
arghhh....
what happen to my digestive system???
really uncomfortable now....

gastric...
the biggest enemy of mine...
it came to attack me when I was in Standard 2....
until now...
nearly 10 years....
really no cure for it....
the only way is eating on time...
but...
according to my crazy sleeping time...
I'll always having my "brunch" instead of breakfast and lunch....
haiz~

p/s: it's time to eat gastric medicines and go to sleep....the worst thing is...I'm also having diarrhoea now....T_T

Truth

"Sometimes you worry about others too much, but do they really worry about you much like you worry others?"
when I first read this...
my heart has a sudden shock..
but just for a few seconds...
after that...
I feel very happy...
as I said before....
I'm a totally straight forward person...
anything that you disagree or have some opinion...
just say it out...
I can accept that....
that sentence is the truth...
truth...
sometimes is pain...
but...
first time have a person that look through my real heart....
thanks for saying it out...
you are totally right...
sometimes is me think too much and worry too much....
maybe someone will appreciate it..
but maybe someone think that kind of worry is rubbish...

anyway...
I'll still worry about the person that I care of...
I'll still worry about the person that I think worth of...
although that person maybe will not accept my worry....
this is me...
and I always believe....
只要真心付出，别人也会真心待你....

p/s: really thanks...thanks for saying out your opinion...appreciate it...because not much people will say out the truth....^^

As Times Go. Bye.

Yesterday accompanied my parents walking around the housing estate near my taman...
so many days and so many years past by....
I just realised...
there are so many new housing estate around my house...
the land had been cleared off for more houses to build up...
the green land...
no more....
the trees...
no more....

This afternoon I'm reading a book...
inside the book have one phrase--As Times Go By....
but the author thinks...
this phrase should be like this--As Times Go. Bye....

I'm totally agree with that...
as times go...
you really have to say goodbye...
no turning back...
you?
do you agree with that phrase?

Crazy Sleeping Time....

Third day of my semester break...
honestly...
quite boring...
and nearly everyday facing my laptop....
not online but watching all TVB Hong Kong drama series that I had copied from my housemate....
I had finished 20 episode drama series in two days time....
hmmm...
nothing to do what....

By the way...
my sleeping time...
it's really turn crazy....
yesterday(this early morning) slept at 12.30am...
as in the calculation of adults sleeping time...
8 hours is more than enough...
but I slept until 1.30pm just woke up...
13 hours sleeping time....
that's...
hmmm....
because of this...
eat not in time...
I'm having quite serious gastric now....
T_T
and this evening...
5pm slept until 7pm just woke up....
13 hours plus 2 hours...
15/24 hours...
hmmm....
after this don't know what time wanna sleep...
because of excessive sleeping time today...
I'm widely awake now....
haiz~

Loneliness Beyond Expectation....

Watching the sunset...I could feel the loneliness inside my heart...hoping to go back home....

Home Sweet Home....

Finally all the exam had done....
tomorrow is the happiest day...
I'm going back hometown....
my bed....
my blanket...
my storybooks...
my piano....
please wait for me just for 1 more night...
and I'll back beside you...
^^

By the way....
happy holidays to all my friends....
and especially thanks to udin and arm....
this sem really happened a lot of things that makes me totally turn crazy sometimes.....
thanks for everything as both of you always right beside me to encourage and comfort me when I was down and unhappy...
thank you very much....
and for all my classmates....
see you next sem as we are still in the same class(no choice...CE students what...hahaha....)

so fast....
trimester 2 finished...
heading towards trimester 3....
wishing you all happy holidays and have a nice break....
^^

Waiting, Waiting and Waiting...

2.30pm sharp....
I had been there....
and time past....
2.45pm...
3.00pm...
3.15pm...
3.30pm...
waiting and waiting....
3 messages and 1 miss call....
you really have to admit that you are old...
really old....
so easy to forget things....
so forgetful....
luckily I'm a quite patient person....
if not...
sorry la....
you will not see me there....
I think if I didn't sms you also will not come....

p/s: siape tu sendiri tau la...hahaha....

Tagged by Zul

Malay tag...
hmmmm...
ok....

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Senaraikan 5 hadiah yang anda impikan:
~Kawai(brand of the piano)grand piano
~Yamaha Proffesional alto saxophone
~BMW car (5 series....hihi....)
~i phone
~free flight ticket to and fro New Zealand...

Alasan terhadap pilihan tersebut:
~I love piano...
~I love saxophone...
~that's my dream car
~that's my dream phone
~that's the country I want to visit the most(the scenes that being taken in The Lord of The Rings)

5 Impresi terhadap orang yang diminati
~loves me..
~cares about me...
~understanding...
~no habit of smoking and drinking....
~at least know how to play 1 type of instrument....

5 Perkara hebat yang pernah dilakukan
~joining the band without giving up....
~compete on the international stage....
~sleep for one day one night didn't wake up....
~BBQ until 2am just go back home...(luckily my parents didn't scold me...whew...)
~wearing in a chicken suit (-_-"")

5 Ciptaan yang paling disukai (tidak semestinya melibatkan teknologi)
~Raymond Lam Fung....
~piano...
~music...
~internet....
~L.O.V.E ^^

5 perkara yang dibenci
~people that smoke....
~I'm quite soft-hearted...hmmm....
~I'm too honest....(is it good or bad????)
~betrayal...arghhhh...hate it....
~people that always tell lie....

5 orang yang hendak ditag
~udin
~arm
~iefa
~zie
~farah

Fly Away

Now....
I'm trying to swallow all the facts and formulae....
but it's really too dry....
and my heart is not here.....
my heart has fly back to my home....
and to my beloved one--my parents....

Just now my mum called me....
say out all the unsatisfied....
such a release...
and feels much more better....
thanks to my mum because I know she will always be there for me....
^^

ICE Green Camp Logo (draft)

First time using CS3 (Adobe Photoshop)....
actually just touch here and there....
learnt from mistake...
now I finally know how useful is CS3....
although I'm just a very very beginer....

after recieving the task from the Head of PR team of Green Camp....
I really have no clue how the logo looks like....
then I just simply draw and summit....
unexpected....
my logo is 1 of the choice from the senior(they thought it was copied from internet...actually is the result of simply drawing...=p)
but I've to edit the colour....
after the General Meeting on 19/2/2009...
I just can know the result whether they ok with the colour of the logo or not...
just waiting....
^^

the first logo that I had submitted...is it like a dragon or some how a grasshoper?? Actually it is a bird!! Can anybody tell me is it seems like a dragon??? ~pissed off~

First sample of colour...

Second sample of colour(I like this the most....^^)

Third sample of colour...the most messy one...because I do until my eyes sakit already.....

p/s: please don't laugh at my work...I first time use CS....hmm....by the way welcome to give opinion....^^

Uphill and Downhill day...

Today calculus and chemistry final exam...
I totally no comment about it....
we have to look forward....
tomorrow physics...
don't know how to study....
I'm so tired now...
just now when doing chemistry paper...
I nearly fall asleep....
hmmm.....

I think today I'll sleep early....
once again....
Good luck to all my friends for tomorrow paper....
^^

Get Your Weapons...Be Ready..Lets Go!

Tomorrow...
the war begins....
to all my friends...
Get all your weapons ready....
pencil box, ID, examination ticket, and the most important thing--your brain that full with formulae and facts.....
Be ready to crack your head in the examination hall...
so I think tonight better sleep early...
but is it possible for me?
I'm not ready yet!!!!!

ok...
I think I better get back to all my works....
see you all tomorrow....
Good Luck!!!!
Gambateh!!!!
加油!!!!

All About Stress...

1 more day to go....
but I've so many things haven't cover yet...
so worry now....
and...
because of stress and late sleep....
my pimples become worse!!!!
AHHHHH!!!!!
hope this week quickly past....
I really don't want stress anymore!!!!!!!
T_T

A Scary Sudden Thought....

When I think back my physics result...
suddenly a scary thought pop out in my mind....
if I fail in PHYF125...
I've to retake...
I've embarrased my family....
I've made my mum worry about me again(because of chosing the wrong course)...
then...
I can't stand anymore....
I'll give up in taking engineering...
then....
where is my future????

really uncomfortable when I think about it...
nearly burst out in tears....
now is not me don't want to study hard in this subject...
but I really don't understand the things that is in abstract...
no matter how I tried...
no matter how I practice, practice and practice all the exercises...
I still can't get through it....
how am I going to do....
few more days for me to solve this problem...
hope I really can step out from this nightmare....
:-(

Jing Si Aphorism 5

“前脚走，后脚放” 意即： 昨天的事就让它过去，把心神专注于今天该做的事。
When walking, as we step one foot forward, we lift the other foot up. In the same way, we should let go of yesterday and focus on today.

证严法师静思语
By Master Cheng Yen

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when I read this....
really woke me up....
past is the past....
no one can turn it over again....
so....
I should focus on the work today...
forget all the unhappy things happened in this morning....

Wanna Thanks Someone....

Just come back from Upten...
actually I wanna thanks udin....
thanks for everything....
really appreciate it...
I actually didn't tell you just now....
my mood is still not so good....
but when I first saw you...
when I chat with you....
when I read the silly messages that you sent to me....
I really cool down....
no more bad mood....
I also can't figured out why....

anyway...
thanks friend....
^^

Downcast

Today....
just leave me alone....
no mood to talk with you all...
let me cool down first...
I know is my own fault...
but there is no medicine called "Regret" for me to eat...
it's my fault...
it's my fault...
it's my fault...
it's my fault...

.....
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.....
.....
.....
.....
.....
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p/s: sorry to haziq for not answered you when you call me just now...today just leave me alone....

ICE Recycle Day (Kelompok Ilmu and Amanah)

I'm so tired now...
today is ICE Recycle Day...
and equally my exercise day....
before this I thought at least have 10 volunteers to help me....
but at last...
only 7 people appear....
ok...
fine....
so we just go up and down the stairs...
knocking door by door...
asking for recyclables....
quite tired actually....
but the result really unexpected...
we had collected many of things...

thanks to all my seniors....
this is the first time I be the person in charge of the activity....
but all my seniors really cooperate with me...
thank you very much!!!!!
^^

p/s: Is it girls very like to drink mineral water? 4 or 5 big full black rubbish bags....

All Subjects Carry Marks

Final exam is coming....
Carry marks came out....
until this stage I only can face my chemistry carry marks....
just now went to Dr Ahmad Kamal's room to take my calculus carry marks....
not in my expectation...
especially the carry marks for the quizzes...
it makes me really disappointed....
haiz~
actually is my own fault...
don't want to study la....
then become like this....
T_T

one more subject--physics...
the most scary subject...
the subject's carry marks that I really don't want to face it....
especially when Dr Zolman said, "Nobody performed in Test 2....there's someone get 1/35 in the test....teruk until I don't know how to help you all...."
really praying hard that 1/35 is not me....
now I'm so worry....
(-_-"")

To Arm: Cheer Up, Friend

This post is specially dedicated to my best friend--Izham(Arm)

To Arm:
I know you are really down now...
I don't want to talk too much....
all the things I wanna say I've posted as the comment on your blog....
just remember...
not all the friends are like that....
there is still some precious friends will appear in your life....
if you can feel the warmness from that person....
I can confirm he/she is truely care for you....
Open you heart...
feel the care from others...
then you will know who is the person that you can trust and can be the best friend....
cheer up..
friend....
^^

By heqing
3/2/2009 4.45pm

New Year Eve

25/1/2009--New Year Eve + My Mum's Birthday

After nearly half an hour journey...
we reached my grandparents house at Sengkang, Bukit Gambir, Muar....
and my mum and my aunt started to prepare all the vegetables and meat that we needed for the reunion dinner--steamboat.....
sorry to say that...
I didn't help at all....
hahaha...
I'm a lazy bump....
I just watching TV shows and playing with the dogs(yes..dogs...3 of them...hahahaha....)

And...
night time....
of course....
reunion dinner...
all my family come back plus all my cousins....
total 19 people...
by the way....
the soup of the steamboat really delicious...
thanks to my aunt....
^^

after reunion dinner....took my 2nd cousin's pix....


my 3rd cousin....


one of the dog...my uncle's Golden Retrevier...it is as tall as the height of a child....

A Supprise....

28/1/2009 9.23pm---a day that I'll remember forever....

In the car...
heading towards my bro's house at Kajang Sg Chua....
received a phone call from my friend....
she told me someone wanna know how am I but that person don't want to let me know who is he/she....
but without second thought....
his name just pop out in my mind.....
but I didn't say it out because I'm not so sure about it....
after reconfirm...
yes....
it's him....

2 years...
losing contact with him....
the person that I miss the most...
the person that I feel so sorry....
appear again in my life....
don't know how will it be after this...
again...
let the time be the judge...

Finally Can Online + Holidays finish

1 week no internet...
really uncomfortable....
just like lose contact with everybody....
besides that....
I didn't do my subject pre-registration(have to pay for it already...RM100...haiz~)....
today just try my house's dial-up connection...
boleh pulak...

Just now go 2 check my mail box...
crap...
60 unread mail.....
some of it really important...
like the MUET registration...
arghhhh....
tomorrow I'm going back Uniten...
how to register at the State Education Department????
I think I've to call my mum to help me as she will always go to PPD Muar.....

This is a quite tiring holidays....
I really have fun for this year Chinese New Year....
but when I think of my final exam is approaching....
hmmm....
is time to study hard again....

About how I have my Chinese New Year...
I'll post it later with the photos....
because most of the photos is in my bro's camera....
need time to get it....

See you all in Uniten tomorrow....
actually...
I wanna scream.....
I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK!!!!!!!!!