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This is What UNITEN Reply me on my complaint of the MURNI Incident

2011-03-09T12:32:00.001+08:00

UNITEN Management just reply my complaint. This is the proof:

"Dalam kes yang berlaku di Hostel Murni M2-02-04 pada jam lebih kurang 0415hr. 7/3/2011 setelah siasatan dijalankan oleh Pegawai Penyiasat Jenayah Uniten dan Polis, keputusan siasatan adalah “ PENCEROBOHAN UNTK MELAKUKAN KESALAHAN “ dibawah seksyen 451 Kanun Keseksaan. Barang siapa atau sesiapa yang membuat anggapan dan andaian sendiri iaitu kejadian “ CUBA ROGOL “ atau “ ROGOL “ telah berlaku adalah menjadi suatukesalahan yang boleh diambil tindakan undang undang dibawah Akta Hasutan, iaitu membut hebahan tidak berasas yang akan mencetuskan dan mendatangkan KEGUSARAN/KETAKUTAN/KESELAMATAN pelajar pelajar terutama wanita, seterusnya akan dan boleh menjejaskan kedudukan Universiti Tenaga Nasional. Kejadian berlaku iaitu satu lelaki telah masuk bilik pelajar wanita melalui tingkap dan terjun keluar tingkap jalan sama setelah mangsa menjerit, tiada kejadian CABUL/ROGOL/KECURIAN berlaku.

J.O

Unit Siasatan ( J )

Uniten."

IF YOU DON'T WANT US TO HAVE WRONG INTERPRATION, PLS INFORM US EARLIER, BUT PLS NOT TO THREATEN USTO SUE US ON AKTA HASUTAN!!!! ALTHOUGH JUST A BREAK IN BUT IT IS STILL VERY DANGEROUS TO A GIRL. WHO KNOWS THE THIEF WILL RAPE THE GIRL OR NOT. ONLY GOD KNOWS WHAT IS THE PERSON THINKING. AND PLS COME OUT WITH SOME MEASUREMENTS TO IMPROVE THE SECURITY IN MURNI. THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME THE INCIDENT HAPPENED!!! NOW I KNOW WHY THE PREVIOUS CASES CAN BE COVER UP BECAUSE OF THIS KIND OF INSINCERE ATTITUDE TO SOLVE THE PROBLEMS!!!

回顾

2010-11-26T03:02:00.002+08:00

三年了。离开中学校园三年了。三年说长不长，说短不短。翻着学校校刊，一个又一个的回忆涌上脑海。那些记忆中的画面，就好像发生在昨天一样，好熟悉，好怀念。

回想起中一的我，来自华小的我，刚开始还不能适应一切由国语为主的国中，老师校长在讲什么我都听得好辛苦，所要传达的东西，我的接收器永远慢半拍。此外，需要用国语交谈时，怎样都吐不出正确的词语。而且加入了管乐团，让我的中学生活从此改变了。

中二。好庆幸交了Aisyah这位好朋友。她是来自华小的友族同胞，华语说的一级棒。是她教会我怎么用国语和其他人交谈，是她让我鼓起勇气把国语交谈学好。我这口流利的国语，她的功劳真的是功不可没。

中三。要考PMR的年到了。那时的心情是怎样的，已经变得很模糊了。只知道自己就这样地进了考场，过了一个星期，就把一年所学的东西都“吐”了出来，从来没有想过拿到好成绩。真的是幸运吧。=]

中四了。毫不犹豫地进了science班，从此就被物理、数学、高级数学、化学和生物科环绕着生活，补习也占据了我的生活。补习时间表现在还在我家的白板上：
星期一： BM 3.00-5.00pm
Chemistry 7.45-10.00pm
星期二： Physic 7.45-10.00pm
星期三： English 4.30-6.30pm
星期四： Piano 8.00-10.00pm
星期五： Add Maths 7.30-9.30pm
多谢我爸的坚持，因为他不允许我们周末有补习，这是因为周末是我们好好休息、充电的最佳时刻。

中五。SPM考试。这考试成绩就是决定我的未来的路了。虽然面对着滚滚而来的课业、压力，我和我的朋友却毫不在乎的到处在学校的各个角落，到处寻找老师留下了一大堆的照片以做纪念。那时候的我们，都有同一个想法：这是我们在中学的最后一年了，不要因为课业和考试而错失了在学校的欢乐时光。过了这一年，大家都要分道扬镳了，再见面的时候都不知是哪年哪月哪日了。秉持着这个想法，以不一样的心态踏进了考场。

2008年3月。成绩出炉了。成绩优异的都被叫上台了，自己心知肚明：“被叫上台的份没我的了。” 可是我并不因此感到不快，因为成绩的好坏并不能决定一个人。在班主任面前拿到了成绩单，没有想象中差，只是华语拿了个3B真的有点不甘愿，可是没办法啦。哈哈。就这样，父母人在中国旅游，我独自去学校拿了还过得去的成绩。接下来就是要想以后要走的路了。

三年了。回顾这三年，向妈妈信誓旦旦的说永远不要再和物理科有挂钩，可现在的我正在修读着土木工程系，可能是上辈子欠物理科的债吧。哈哈。现在的心理就是“既来之，则安之”。已经踏上了一条不归路，偶尔往回看无伤大雅，最重要的是要勇敢地走下去，因为这是我自己决定、自己选择的路，怨不得别人。只希望我能继续踩着坚定的脚步走下去。

（记得有一次，回到中学，我的数学老师Pn Fung 突然间的对我说：“你怎么在这里？没有去JPA interview 吗？” 我满头雾水的对老师说：“老师，我已经毕业三年了。” 说完彼此都笑了。在老师眼中，所有曾教过的学生，都好像才刚毕业。岁月流逝的速度真得好快，没察觉就一年一年的过了。在此希望我中学的老师们永远那么健康永远那么可爱。） ^^

Back again...^^

2010-11-24T00:52:00.002+08:00

After 4 months didn't update my blog...
suddenly feel like to type something...
having holiday at home...
who knows...
sick again...
sore throat, flu, cough, fever, headache...
all come in one go...
luckily now really better already...
phew...

knowing from friends...
seems like every places are rainning...
but why Muar so hot?
everyday hoping for rain...
a real heavy rain...
wash away all the heat...

few days more at home...
going to open sem...
before open sem...
result is coming out...
preparing for the worst result...
because I really done very bad in every papers...
can't blame other people also...
all is my own fault..
didn't study properly..
didn't revise properly...
next sem not going to do this again...
scared already...
>.<

*praying hard for the rain*
*praying hard for a better result on 26th Nov*

New Semester...

2010-07-08T19:30:00.002+08:00

First week of my new semester ended...

everyday were so tired...

and many activities from ICE through out this month...

hope I will have enough energy...

haha...

and wish me luck in my new semester...

我回来了！！ ^^

2010-06-15T22:03:00.003+08:00

我真的让我的blog“死”很久了

突然间想回来写些东西

半年就这样过去了

生活得还不错

人生也有了转变

生命中也出现了些许的改变

过完了special sem

学了一些基本的德语

还不错

加上有一位漂亮的德语老师

让整个德语课变得更不错了

哈哈

现在放假在家里没事做

上网、玩game、看戏

谢谢宇洁那天约了我去唱K

唱到没声音

不过大家都很开心

还去吃了curry pattaya

不错吃哦

昨天不小心在我姐的书丛中

找到了蔡智恒最新的书

《鲸鱼女孩池塘男孩》

现在正在阅读中

一向来是痞子蔡的书迷

希望这本书再次会带给我感动

Welcome Year 2010

2010-01-03T18:48:00.002+08:00

Nearly one month didn't update my blog ady...

as usual...

nothing much to post actually...

started my new sem about one month ady...

busy, busy, busy...

lab reports, lab reports, lab reports...

non-stop stuffs coming...

year 2010...

nothing to celebrate...

just one year older...

have to be wiser in handling all kinds of stuffs...

just that...

my new year wish...

hoping everything can be done smoothly throughout this year...

Happy New Year to everyone...

New Sem Begin...

2009-12-07T13:10:00.002+08:00

Sorry for nearly 1 month didn't update my blog...
kinda lazy and also nothing interesting to write about...
the whole holiday is quite boring...
doing the same thing again and again...
sleep, eat, tv shows, anime....

well...
this is the second week of my first year degree second sem...
timetable kinda loose...
14 credit hours only...
all classes will be started by this week...
so wish me all the best..
^^

Final Exam Finished....

2009-10-31T13:29:00.005+08:00

Sorry for didn't update my blog for a long long time...
busy with all the stuffs...
finally finished with all my papers...
4 papers in 3 days...
we first year CE students can be considered as the luckiest...
finished all the papers on 28/10, wed....
so happy....
finish early that means holidays starts early...
tomorrow going back to Muar already...
will say bye bye to Uniten...
say hi to my 1 month holidays....
^^

Robogamez 2009

2009-10-07T21:52:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog....
I'm really busy recently....
Robogamez 2009 just ended last weekend...
this game last for 4 days...
be the volunteer under P.R.O team...
quite tiring actually...
but then its really a good experience....
thanks Abang Fifi...
he is really a good ketua...
^^

Yu Xin, Take Care...^^

2009-09-17T23:15:00.004+08:00

Today 17th September....
yuxin is leaving to czech republic to further her study under JPA scholarship...
went to KLIA to send her....
and sujia was there also...
gonna miss her...
wish her all the best in her studies...
^^,

yuxin and me...

yuxin, sujia and me....

Concreting...^^

2009-09-10T12:56:00.009+08:00

Finally is our turn to do some concrete...
10kg of cement...
20kg of sand...
40kg of gravel...
7.5kg of water...
add all these into the mixer....
before doing the concrete cube...
we done the compacting factor test and also slump test...
we enjoyed very much our experiment and laugh a lot too...
hahaha...
happy day...
^^

compacting factor test....

(look in series ya...) firstly add concrete into the slump cone layer by layer....

secondly do the tampping by 25 times to remove the trapped air....

then remove the slump cone 90 degree upwards...

observe the concrete and measure the slump....this is the shear slump...

this is the true slump....

怎么了

2009-09-09T21:43:00.002+08:00

不知不觉
是不是付出太多了？
而付出的
是不是也渴望得到相对的回报？

不是说好的吗？
为什么对那些话没有信心了？
为什么对那些话开始动摇了？
是怕自己不能做到吗？
是怕自己破坏所有的一切吗？
是怕自己敏感的直觉吗？
是怕自己踏出那永远回不了头的那一步吗？
是怕...
是怕...

问题的出现
总有它的原因
而能找到问题的答案吗？
希望能
可到目前为止
默默地
是个好选择
因为
输不起
也不敢输

p/s : not in a good mood today...maybe these are crapping and maybe are the truth..I don't know...

ICE Exco Board 2009/10

2009-09-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

the new ICE Exco Board 2009/10....I look so mature in the blazer...XD

Spontaneuos Plan....^^

2009-09-02T19:55:00.002+08:00

Yesterday just after my calculus class...
met jackson, calvin and chen kiat at COE foodcourt...
suddenly chen kiat said lets go to petrosains....
we were like...
WHAT?
and at last...
we really when there...
didn't go to 4 classes....
(children, don't learn from us ya....XD)
we really had fun there...
but then because we short of time...
the last few stations we can't really explore it...
although so rush...
but this was really a good experience...
^^

me and the rapping T-rex....^^

Playing Cement and Fly-ash day...XD

2009-08-30T15:18:00.003+08:00

Last Thursday we had our material lab as usual...
we thought we were going to do concrete...
but then...
due to one of the mixer rosak already...
we have to proceed to another experiment-consistency test of standard cement paste...
well...
it is basically to determine the amount of water needed to produce a standard cement paste...
this experiment really fun...
we were required to campur cement/fly-ash and water using our hands....
macam nak buat cake pulak tu....
XD
luckily we had gloves to use....
or esle I can't imagine our hands are full of cement...
hahahaha.....

ah kit is mixing the fly-ash and water....

the apparatus for the consistency test--Vicat apparatus.....

Wonderful day...^^

2009-08-29T23:08:00.006+08:00

Just because I'm not going back this long weekend...
so I have a plan to tarik my friend to go out....
well...
we really planned our destination and tasks to be done...
Bookfiesta 2009, transfer money, change my watch battery, watch movie-UP, shopping, survey my white pants, treat my friend eat....

we start our day with a very early arrived at the KTM Serdang station...
then we headed to the KL Convention Center for the Bookfiesta 2009 organized by Popular...
the CDs there really damn cheap and have really great discount....
I bought 2 of my favourite CDs....
The Style of Richard Clayderman-Romantic Piano (6 CDs) with only RM35.90 (the original price is RM59.90)...
The Best of Classical Collection (6 CDs) with only RM29.90 (the original price is RM59.90)....
so happy....
^^

like these 2 CDs so much...no regret...^^,

after that we headed to Mid Valley to watch movie....
again...
going to GSC Signature...
the movie--UP is really a nice movie for me...
when Carl looking back his wife, Ellie's "My Adventure Book"....
all the photos that they took from they married til they are both old....
so touched and so sweet....
really recommended you all to watch it...
about the storyline can go to Udin's blog....
http://chekudin.blogspot.com/2009/08/up.html?zx=88ad71d94cd7c65b

then after the movie...
we just walked around and trying to survey my white pants...
but then really expensive...
I don't have enough budget on that...
but then at last...
is my friend bought 2 shirts which were quite nice with a really good price....

next was our dinner time...
eating at Sushi King again...
the meal was good and satisfied...

then heading to careffour to buy some daily stuffs...
mostly things to eat and drink...
I bought the IKO biscuits, 2 packets of Dutch Lady milk (which was damn heavy...), KokoCrunch in econo pack, Campbell's soups and some bread for me tomorrow morning...
the whole trolley really full of all the eating stuffs...
haha...
^^

and then is the time to treat my friend to eat...
the mango dessert that we missed it last time...
well...
the mango really not sweet but then the fragrant of mango smells nice....
after waiting my friend bought KFC with the voucher...
it's time to go back...

not sweet de mango....XD

today we walked for about 14 hours...
can said non-stop walking...
so really tired...
but then I really enjoy myself today...
I'm so glad that my friend also enjoy the plan that we had made up few days ago...
overall...
we had a happy and wonderful day...
thanks friend...
^^
and the most important thing...
we done all the tasks in our list....
^^v

Farewell, Dr Shibli....

2009-08-27T22:29:00.005+08:00

Today is the last day having class with Dr Shibli....
Gonna miss you, sir!!
Hope you will have a good life at Canada....
^^

Dr Shibli in his office....

(from the left) Sol, me, Dr Shibli and Calvin....

Civil Engineering Materials Test

2009-08-22T11:52:00.002+08:00

Yesterday just done this test...
all the things that I have memorized came out in the test...
hopefully can get marks....
and next week is the last week Dr Shibli in UNITEN....
he gonna go back to Canada....
I sure all of us will miss him so much...
he is really a good lecturer...
what he teached in class everybody understand so well...
now don't know which university at Canada will be so lucky to have him as their lecturer....
haha....
XD

First meeting as ICE EB

2009-08-20T10:57:00.002+08:00

Yesterday 8pm I attended the first meeting as the ICE EB....
and after our president and vice president discussed with Dr Chua...
Dr Chua decided to change my post...
quite surprise actually....
then we start our meeting....
but suddenly...
I was having serious headache...
feel like the head wanna burst already...
in the whole meeting I was like very blur...
sorry to my ketua actually...
because he told me to think about some events that can get money...
but then at last I can't think of one...
gomenasai....
>.<

about 10.40pm we finished our meeting...
then I quickly walk back to murni...
took bath and sleep...
first time having so serious headache...
haiz...
T_T

Update....

2009-08-16T04:05:00.003+08:00

Really for a long time didn't update my blog...
my friend kept quetioning me why...
haha....
let me explain...

just after the Green Camp...
I have all sorts of things to do....
quiz and lab reports...
especially the lab reports making me a headache....
the graphs really weird...
at last I also submitted already....
correct or not I tak kisah already....
>.<

last thursday...
suddenly every students were required to gather at MPH...
and we knew that UNITEN have to close due to H1N1....
everbody was trying to go back home or esle have to be quarantine at UNITEN for 1 week...
but then we were stucked in our material class....
just after the class...
my bro came and fetch me and my friend...
we have to stay at his house because saturday we have an activity from Tzu Chi Buddhist Foundation....
after the activity...
my friend took train back to hometown...
and my bro and me were back in Muar on Sunday morning....
and start our mid-term break...

during the mid-term break...
I only sleep, eat and watch anime....
only the last few days revise a bit on materials...
other free time---S.L.E.E.P
XD
by the way...
I gonna miss this short break as I will face a hectic weeks after the holidays....
good luck for those are having test 1 after the break....
^^

p/s: thanks for giving me laughter during the time we stay at my bro's house...thanks a lot, friend and you know who you are....^^

ICE Green Camp 2009

2009-08-03T21:01:00.006+08:00

Date: 31st July 2009
Time: 4.00pm
Venue: Shah Alam Malaysia Agriculture Park Bukit Cahaya Seri Alam

About 2.30pm, the registration for all the participants of Green Camp 2009 started. When I was in the bus, I was so sleepy. After listening to the radio, fall asleep but then really just for a while, we reached our destination--Bukit Cahaya. After placing all our stuff at the chalet, we were divided into 5 team--Autumn(yellow), Tsunami(blue), Volcano(red), Mahogany(brown) and Canopy(green). Then, we started our first game--Team Building. I was in the Volcano team. In this game, we have to come up with our maskot, cheer, and also a theme for our team. Finally, Tsunami team won this game.

After having our dinner, we had another game--Rise of The Atlantis. We were required to build something using the recyclable materials given. And as the results, Tsunami team won the game again. XD

Our floatable house...

Date: 1st August 2009
Time: 7.00am
Venue: Pengkalan Batu, Klang

Being wake up by the siren, we are actually heading to Pengkalan Batu for the River Cleaning Programme in coorperation with JPS Selangor. We had our Klang River cleaning and tree plantation just after the opening ceremony. When all the tasks had done, we are required to come out with a idea to improve the method of cleaning the river. Unexpected, my team--Volcano team won this game.

opening ceremony by Dr Lariyah, Dr Chua and the representative from JPS Selangor....

me and the tree we planted along the side of Klang River....

After the tiring tasks in the morning, we headed back to Bukit Cahaya. Rest for a while and listened to Mr Joe(from UK and currently as a part time lecturer at NUS, Singapore) and Mr Pauzi (from UPM) presentation. Next, we started to prepare our ingredients in order to cook our dinner. Actually not cook but it is a BBQ night. And in this BBQ session, we have to prepare a dish which can impress the judges--Mr Joe, Mr Chua and others. Again, my team won this game again. So happy.

our dish--Volcanic BBQ Chicken...^^

At the night, we were having another games. In 45 minutes, we have to come out with a sketch no matter in what form, whether is a drama or musical regarding the theme given. With the cooperation of all team members, our team--Volcano team won the game again. Today really was our day. XD

Date: 2nd August 2009
Time: 6.00am
Venue: Bukit Cahaya

Woke up really early in the morning for the activity--Moonlight Walk. Actually no moonlight. We really walk in the dark around the area. When about 7am, we returned to the main hall and we just found out this was also a game for us. We have to answer the question regarding the things that around us during the walk. Sadly, everybody really were in a blur state. Finally Canopy team won this game. And the climax for this Green Camp--Wild Run. This is a game similar to Explore Race. But the thing that makes our team so angry was, our station was like to and fro. Furthermore, the distance between 2 station was damn damn damn far. Not like other teams. Haiz...this was our luck.... During the game, suddenly having a really heavy rain. We couldn't stop and the only choice was to run in the rain. We were totally wet inside out. Sadly (again), my spec dropped off and my team-mate accidentally stepped on it, luckily not broken, or esle my mum gonna kill me. Although at last the game was cancelled due to the heavy rain, sadly (3rd time) to say, we were the last team to reach. Mahogany team won this game and they have the free tickets to go to The Four Season Garden.

After Dr Chua and Ah Tan gave some talk, we were heading back to UNITEN. So, this is the end of the Green Camp.

I really enjoyed myself throughout the camp, and this is the first camp that makes me learn so much especially our softskills for example our presentation skill. Thanks all the committee from the Green Camp. You all done a really good job!!!

Volcano Team!!! Hugaga Hugaga huuuu......

Volcano Team facilitators--Lyiana and Seng Xiang....

my name tag and booklet....

I love this the most!!! Our logo as our colar badge....

Material Lab

2009-07-30T17:46:00.003+08:00

Today having our very first material lab....
at first really blur...
because we are still new to the lab...
we can't even find the things...

the most special phenomena in the Civil Engineering lab is...
we can hardly sit down...
we can hardly find chairs too....

we are doing the fine and coarse aggregates sieving today...
I thought we just do one time only...
but then we have to do three times...
each times 15 minutes...
luckily we have the mechine to help us do the sieving...
before this I thought can go back earlier...
but we spent also 3 hours to do the lab...
XD

the sieves and the mechine....

Finally met...

2009-07-29T20:57:00.003+08:00

my very best friend during secondary school time--Lia
how to describe her?
she is always happy and laughing all the way...
loves yellow very much...
harry potter fanatic...(same as me...^^)
year 2011 going to Japan ady...
currently studying mechanical engineering....

I finally met her last saturday when I went back to my hometown...
watched Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince...
although that movie really makes me disappointed...
but then...
really happy and excited to meet her up again after 1 year...
after the movie..
we went shopping and finally I bought a pair of shoes that I have been searching since last year....

hoping next time 3 of us can meet (Aisyah, Lia and me)...
because I miss the time when "Three of us will make a pasar...." (quoted from my secondary school chemistry teacher--Pn Chong)
^^,

Overloaded

2009-07-22T20:53:00.003+08:00

Today when I went to the Green Camp booth...
Ah Tan and Karren told me...
booth is closed...
we have enough people for the Green Camp...
and is overloaded....
our target is 50 people...
but now we have 60...
really shocked that will have so many people joining us...
thanks for the support...

p/s: thanks also FlyFM Myvi Trooper...^^

AutoCAD

2009-07-20T21:09:00.003+08:00

Just now was my 2nd autoCAD lab...
nothing changed...
same as last week class....
I'm really really blur....
in order to do well in autoCAD...
you have to be very good in coordinate...
and my coordinate really weak since Form 2...
I really faced many problem...
3 hours lab...
before started the first class...
we thought that 3 hours is a waste...
but then...
today I left the lab at 6 o'clock (class from 2-5pm)....
the whole class left me and San only...
really...
haiz....

but just now I try to do that assignment again...
what am I blur-ing just now?
I done it quite fast...
really hope next week will be better...
I don't want spent 4 hours in the lab again...

Be Ready

2009-07-16T17:19:00.003+08:00

If you wanna be a leader...
please prepare yourself...
be ready to accept and expect all kinds of criticism...
no matter in front of the crowd or behind you...
this is a cruel world...
outside there...
nobody will keep their unpleasent although you are a leader...

痛

2009-07-13T18:09:00.002+08:00

我以为我好了
已经没事了
可
事实证明
我还是无法面对

痛
心痛
心真得好痛

真想找个地方躲起来
不要再见了
可是
人还是要面对现实

给我点时间
好吗

送爱之旅--KKB残智障院 (KKB Handicap Hospital)

2009-07-13T08:38:00.002+08:00

KKB Taman Sinar Harapan 残智障院
~人间炼狱有温情~
那是一个与我们完全不同的世界，他们不能像平常人一样，能自由走动，能蹦蹦跳跳，能自己吃饭，他们只能长年累月躺在床上，不能走也不能动；也许，他们一生的奢望就是可以到外面呼吸一口新鲜的空气。。。他们就是在KKB残智障院里的残智障病人。

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昨天起了一个大早，有多早呢？清晨5.30就起身了。身为慈青的我，再次的参与了慈济的关怀行动，就是到KKB残智障院探望那些不幸的残智障病人。可是，我们都不叫他们病人，而是“菩萨”。因为就是他们所显现众生的苦难，让我们上了一堂生命教育的课，让我们更珍惜现在拥有的一切。

差不多9.30到达了那里，起初还没有什么感觉，但是当我们到一间又一间的病房探望时，一股莫名的辛酸涌上心头。他们有些幸运的就能到处走动，可是大多数的他们，终日就只能面对着铁床的支架，根本无法看到外面的世界。有些病情严重的，医护人员无奈的只好用布条或铁链绑着他们，因为他们不但会伤害自己，也会伤害到其他人。也许大众会觉得好不人道，可是又有什么办法呢？

当我们跟着师伯到另一间病房时，我们就唱歌给他们听。看到他们满足的笑容及开心的和我们一起拍掌，才发现，原来仅仅使用肢体语言就能把我们的爱穿出去了，那是多么多么的简单啊。

而在这间残智障院的最后一位小孩，师姑和我们简单的讲解为什么她会来到这里。她是一位非常可爱、漂亮、聪明的的小女孩，就在她的父母吵架时，他的父母竟然忍心将她从楼上丢下来，大命不死的她，将要面对的就是终身的残缺。她的头壳一边是扁的，一双脚也永远不能站立了。想想看，当人气在上头时所能作出的事，根本是你无法想象的。把自己亲身的孩子对下楼，这么可怕的行为，真的让人不寒而栗。

用完了午斋，我们就回去了。这趟送爱之旅，真的让我体会了很多。就像证言上人时常提醒的，"知福、惜福、再造福”，知道自己所拥有的一切，不可身在福中不知福；珍惜自己所拥有的一切；而善用自己所拥有的来帮助其他需要帮助的人。

#天上最美的是星星，人间最美的是温情#

如果有一天，你再也见不到我

2009-07-11T21:16:00.004+08:00

你再也找不到我的身影时，
你是否会怪我将思念如此轻易放逐？
在你背转身的时候，
悄悄地、悄悄地从你身后逃离。。。
就此消失在苍茫的尘世间，
再也没任何消息与提示。

而当那一天终于无可避免时，
你是否会将自己的心情重新调整，
将记忆默默的收藏起来，
就在一个旁人无法触及的角落里，
你已经将我深深的藏好了，
从此不再让任何人问起你我的过往。

也许爱你，
总是我最深的叹息和无奈，
也许爱我，
亦是你最无奈的苦恼和叹息，
而你我之间缠着的情丝，却是我们相爱的悲哀与矛盾，
一阵来自北方的飘忽的风，
恋上了一只南方的孤傲的雁，
梦与理想的距离亦是天南地北，不可契合。

纵然是爱到深处再无怨尤，
纵情情到深时必有说不清的冲突与挣扎，
所以，你我的相爱之路，
才会是那么的艰难和困惑，
不断的徘徊在取舍之间，
不停的奔波在思念边缘，
直到你我都能清晰感觉到，
那份疲惫与乏累悄悄逼进，
正在逐渐吞噬着我岌岌可危的爱情。

或许，在所有的心情平静以后，
你和我之间，再也无法维系着那一份残缺，
再也无法去守望那一段无痕的岁月，
终于。。。终于。。。
让一切矛盾都画下了句号。

天空中再也没有眼泪，
只因我已飞过，
一生的执著亦是一生的伤痛，
断断续续的思绪，
是不是也期待着一种永恒呢，
哪怕只会是悲伤的延续。

载自：http://www.kanunu.cn/article/pic/comic/200708/744.html

Alamanda Putrajaya

2009-07-11T19:41:00.004+08:00

11 o'clock in the morning...
udin came and fetch me at murni with zul and another friend inside his car..
well...
basically we headed to Alamanda to seek for sponsors...
and udin said we have to dress smart...
and I'm a good girl...
I listened to my ketua (udin)...
and took out the black blouse that I bought for the last chinese new year...
I haven't wear that blouse before...
because I think that blouse is for very important occassion...
but then if go to meet the manager...
certainly have to wear smart...
and first thing udin saw me...
he said I'm very beautiful today...
hahaha....
thanks ya, friend....

when we reached Alamanda....
we tried to go around to target some sponsors....
but then at last only Golden Screen Cinema have our proposal...
others we have to mail to the headquarter...
done with our work...
we have our lunch at Kenny Roger...
a very full meal...
then we watch Transformer: Revenge of The Fallen...
undeniable...
this movie really best...
I really enjoy it...

after buying Big Apple Donuts....
surprisingly the cashier of the Big Apple Donuts said I looks like korean (because of my dressing...)...
really shock and segan lo...
then I just smile back to them....
XD
then is the time to go back...
because of our dear driver don't know the way back...
we turned round and round the putrajaya housing estate for 3 times...
really no comment about this...
hahaha...
but then luckily reached uniten safely...
XD

at Kenny Roger...with my quarter meal....^^

ICE Green Camp Booth

2009-07-11T19:23:00.003+08:00

Yesterday heading to BA to set up the Green Camp booth...
but then no board for us to put up all the things...
so thanks to Ah Tan giving us a ride to BM to set up the booth there first....

first we completed drawing our logo--The Little Man...
then we started to put up the "Green Camp" words using the green colour straws....
after that cucuk the theme "Rise of The Green Nation"...
and used different colour of chalk to decorate and writing on the sugar paper...
hmmm...
the booth ok ok only la...
because that is our first try...
hope our BA booth will improve lo....
^^

Welcome all uniten student to visit our booth at BA and BM starting next week...
and hope you all to join us in this camp...

过山车的心情

2009-07-09T01:09:00.002+08:00

真的有点受不了自己
之前还无法释怀
现在竟然有松了一口气的感觉
两天就解决了问题
虽然得到了答案的那一刻有点错愕
可是
并没有想象中那么伤心
拜我的直觉所赐吧
想象中的答案和现实中的答案
竟然一模一样
也许
彼此各退一步
离开了朋友和情人间的界线
回到各自之前的位置
是最适合的选择

无论如何
付出的爱
永远收不回
心中的缺口
需要时间来愈合
幸运的是
彼此还没那么深入这份感情
否则
爱得越深
伤得越重

但这一刻的我决定了
从此无欲无求
一切顺其自然
因为
心如止水才能看透一切

哭了

2009-07-08T12:10:00.002+08:00

昨夜
睡了一个非常不安稳的觉
脑海中
浮现的都是昨天那擦身而过的你
突然间
好后悔没回头叫你
好后悔没回身看看你的背影
好后悔当时假装没事的和朋友高声谈天

今晨
从睡梦中醒来
发现枕边湿湿的
发觉眼睛涩涩的
原来
我第一次为了你而哭了

在彼此没有联络的第一天
我生病了
真的病了
头好痛
鼻涕一直流
唉。。。。

2009-07-07T18:02:00.002+08:00

当我见到你的那一刹那
第一个念头就是想逃走
对不起
我不知道怎么面对你
在你还没找到答案之前
我不想成为你的负担
也不想因为我而扰乱了你的思绪

你知道吗
当我转移视线
看着地上时
而你和我擦身而过
我多么希望你对我说声“嗨”
可是
我听到的
只有你那熟悉的脚步声
越走越远
越走越远

现在
我唯一能做的事
就是等待
等待那一份答案
也许会再伤心一次
但至少我知道
知道了你真正的想法
知道了你真正想要的是什么

虽然不知等待的日子有多长
但我会一直等下去
等到我真的撑不下去的那一天

Started

2009-07-06T15:02:00.002+08:00

Today started my first sem of first year degree...
so many things have to do...
but due to too many people...
I have to settle all tomorrow...

by the way...
my advance calculus lecturer--Dr Abu Bakar also known as "Dr Burn"...
wondering is he a good lecturer...
hmmm...
and my civil engineering materials lecturer--Dr Shibli...
according to his description of this subject...
the cement, the aggregate, the concrete, the bituminous materials, the timber, the steel...
I really can't wait to study all that...
really looking forward of this subject...
^^

Back in Uniten

2009-07-05T16:12:00.002+08:00

Finally back in uniten...
so tired...
about 12 noon check in Murni...
first time come here...
the room is quite big compared to Ilmu single room...
and quite clean also...
after arranging all the things...
meet my bro and headed for our lunch...
and after that...
my parents went back ady...
holidays end...
new sem start...
hope tomorrow will be a better day...
^^

Holidays end...

2009-07-05T00:20:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow morning going back to uniten...
3 weeks holidays officially ended...
no more sleeping till afternoon...
no more tv shows from day to night...
no more delicious dishes from mum...
waiting in front of me is a whole new semester in my 1st year degree...
7 subjects with a total of 16 credit hours...
drafting, drafting lab, material, material lab, statics I, advance calculus and malaysian studies...
hope can do really well in the following semester....

by the way...
just now packing and sorting out my things...
omg...
I have reduced the things to bring...
but as a result...
you will know when looking at the photo below...

well...
some still not in the photo...
so imagine how many things I have...
XD

bye bye to the study room at my home (quite messy actually...)....no worry...I'll be back...hehe...

Countdown

2009-07-01T20:34:00.001+08:00

So many things happened this holidays...
a lot of changes...
well...
some is really unexpected...
^^
anyway...
got my result...
not so good...
kinda disappointed though...
got my apartment...
but no idea who will be my housemates...
got my sem 1 time table...
I don't want friday class...
but no choice...
no add and drop session for us...
overall this holidays just keep resting...
everyday sleep and eat and TV shows....
kinda boring but I sure will miss this holidays...
begining to pack and arrange all my things...
few more days to go for my holidays...
and it's time to go back...
to start a brand new life...
looking forward this...

Cooking....

2009-06-18T20:35:00.002+08:00

15th to 17th june...
alone at home...
because my parents had a kursus at Pontian...
no choice...
have to cook for myself...
luckily I'm a girl that know how to cook...
hahaha...
quite tasty ooo...
^^

2 dishes...one vegetables one steamed fish...yummy...^^

Miss you...

2009-06-18T20:23:00.002+08:00

hope to meet you soon...^^

We are FREE!!! ^^

2009-06-11T21:01:00.005+08:00

Just right after our moral final exam...
we went to Mid Valley to catch movie...
Night At The Museum 2...
really damn funny movie...
I laughed until stomachache ady...
and I love that Albert Einstein patung...
damn cute la...
hahaha...

after the movie...
we spent about one hour more in the Jiggsaw Puzzle World...
nearly don't want to come out ady...
all the puzzles in that shop are imported from Japan...
although very expenssive but the quality really2 good....
but really over budget ady...
so I didn't buy any of the puzzle...

by the way...
damn tired now...
but really happy...
because one more day and I'm going back to my home....
I miss all the things at Muar...
^^

forget what fast food shop is this ady...what junior...but the fries really best...now really no more McD fries....

the burger is damn big...but really tasty....recomanded fish burger...like it so much....^^,

Relax Time...

2009-06-10T20:19:00.003+08:00

Although have one more paper to go...
but seems like everybody is relaxing now....
haha....
just right after the physics exam...
we (kaizen, calvin, alvin, tony, aric, darren and me) straight away go to seri kembangan to have our dinner...
turn here and there...
finally we decided to have "bak kut teh"...
really full now...
and the "bak kut teh" taste quite ok...
^^,
then we start chit-chatting until now just came back...
hahaha....
well...
darren and kaizen going back tomorrow...
calvin and alvin going back this sunday...
tony going back the next tuesday (because wanna get cheaper flight ticket...tony's hometown really far lo...Sabah...XD...)
and me...
going back this saturday...
really happy but a bit sad...
because my school band having competition on saturday and I can't go back to watch their performance....
T_T
so hope they can perform their very best and win some of the catogeries....
jiayou SABGS WIND BAND!!!!

这是什么感觉呢？

2009-06-10T07:57:00.002+08:00

心
好像被一个钟敲响了
是什么促使它做出这种反应呢？
是藏在心底的那个感觉呢？
还是这一切都是错觉？

心
没有嘴
它无法告诉我

心
没有思想
它无法让我知道它在烦恼着什么

所以
我也不知道

2 more to go

2009-06-09T21:47:00.002+08:00

Chemistry finished....
two more subject to go...
physics and moral...
and I can go back to my lovely hometown...
and finally can meet my parents...
1 month and 2 weeks...
I finally survived without going back home...
XD

New Template..again...^^

2009-06-09T10:30:00.003+08:00

Suddenly went to search for beautiful blogger template...
(not concentrate in study...XD)
and here is it...
beautiful or not is depends on one's taste...
but this template suits my taste...
^^,

Two Down Three More to Go

2009-06-08T18:48:00.003+08:00

Just done english paper and calculus paper...
don't ask me how's the paper...
just forget about it....
=_=""
after resting...
is time to continue my revision on chemistry...
I hope I can do well in the final...
because I don't want to do the same mistake again....
>.<

p/s : 刚刚看到的，真的无法否认。。。事实始终是无法改变的。。。

Begin

2009-06-08T06:18:00.002+08:00

Thanks the mosquito in my room...
you really wake me up in early morning without using my alarm....
4.30am until now...
I'm still studying calculus...
all the diverges and converges....
really making me headache...
wth is the power series...
wth is the Taylor & Maclaurin series...
I don't like these....
inside my heart...
I have the preparation to give up....
yes...
I know we can't give up like that...
but when the time I decided to give up...
that means I really don't understand and really don't know how to do that questions...
so....
let's see what happen in this afternoon exam....

by the way...
I haven't prepare for my english paper yet...
if final can't score...
what the use of having a quite good carry marks?
bazir je...
I think I better go now...
>.<

送给你

2009-06-06T10:26:00.002+08:00

就在考试将要到来的时刻
我的foundation生活也要画上句点了
这一年
过得好快
也尝尽了人生中的酸、甜、苦、辣
也体会到了人生当中的残酷、无情
也知道了被人中伤的痛苦滋味
这一切的一切
多亏了一直陪伴在我身边的朋友们
我才能踏出这些黑暗的日子

谢谢udin
从第一学期到现在
他都不离不弃的帮助着我
每当不开心时
我知道他都会奋不顾身的抽出时间
听我倾诉、安慰我
他所做的一切
真的写不完
忠心的感谢他

谢谢calvin
在他身上我学到了很多东西
无意中
他也教会了我好多
让我能够好好地反省自己
每当我需要找一个人来聊天时
他都会聊些有的没的
让我不那么无聊、不那么伤心
真的谢谢他

谢谢kaizen
我的干哥哥
就在我哥远在槟城时
他就在我身边
关心我的饮食
担心我的胃痛有没有发作
叮咛我要好好照顾身体
远在他乡的我
他的关心
就像一股暖流
温暖了我的心
感谢他的体贴

谢谢shuhui
就在我们面对同样的问题时
彼此的倾诉
彼此毫无保留的谈话
一起牵扶着彼此
走出伤痛
感谢她

谢谢alvin和tony
认识他们不久
可是
真的很高兴可以认识他们
虽然相处的日子很短
但
他们真的带给我欢乐
让我能开怀大笑
所谓
“笑笑没烦恼嘛"
感谢你们咯

还有好多好多的朋友
感谢你们的支持和鼓励
没能一一列出你们的名字
希望你们不要介意
在此
送上我真心地祝福
祝福你们
考试顺利
生活永远开开心心的
我们有缘再相聚

这里也有一个我学妹send给我的方程式
就送给你们吧

幸福方程式：
一颗敢梦的心 + 两倍的努力 + 三倍的行动
就能成就百分之百的幸福和成功

Miss....

2009-06-04T15:19:00.003+08:00

Just now called my mum...
miss her so much....
and...
just now saw the photos of all my friends...
miss them so much...
everyone is having their holidays at Muar...
but I'm still here...
struggling....
studying for final...
really hope all this finish earlier...
I wanna meet my family....
I wanna meet my friends...
I wanna go back to my lovely hometown--Muar....
>.<

Getting Started

2009-06-02T17:59:00.002+08:00

5 more days to go....
but I haven't start to revice anything yet...
no matter how no matter what...
tonight have to get started ady....
or esle...
I could say that...
I'll say bye bye to my scholarship...
and this is what I don't wish to happen....
but before that...
eat first...
XD

p/s : not going out with kaizen them again...well, I think they know what's the problem...=_=""

Persuasive Speech

2009-06-01T20:14:00.002+08:00

Suddenly knew it from zul today 12 noon we will have english class...
and who haven't do their persuasive speech...
have to complete it by today also...
first thing in my mind...
this time really mati ady...
without any preparation...
just stand in front to present...
just read from my paper...
but I think this is the worst performance among 3 speeches....
praying hard to get better marks....
>.<

Steamboat!!! ^^

2009-05-30T01:30:00.019+08:00

From 8pm to 12 am....
we ate steamboat for about 4 hours...
amazing...
hahaha...
and we are definately full until our stomach like a ball...
XD
and guess what....
unlimited food and unlimited time only RM20+ each person...
that's so great...
next time got chance wanna bring my family here...
^^,

Our food and drink

Tony wanna eat the banana leaf...hahaha...XD

calvin and shuhui...looks like lovely couple le...hehe...

shuhui and her big spoonful of ice cream...XD

kaizen...

tony...

alvin..

shuhui and me...

shuhui and alvin..

alvin and kaizen...

calvin and tony...

kaizen and me...

big family...(from left) calvin, shuhui, alvin, kaizen, me and tony at the back...^^

For more photos, can visit this link, my facebook photo album
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=52948&id=1390216577&saved#/album.php?aid=52948&id=1390216577

Tagged by Daisy

2009-05-29T14:10:00.005+08:00

1.Beside your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
cheek / forehead

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
very tired, thought can sleep longer....

3. Who was the last person/people you took a picture with?
Miss Madihah...my physics tutor....

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
a little bit...XD

5. Will you donate blood?
I can't donate blood, because I'm underweight....

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yes...

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
of course no la...what stupid question is this...

tag:
1.wendy
2.shuhui
3.kaixin
4.udin
5.iefa
6.khajie
7.zul
8.farah
9.ija

15. Who is No.2 having a relationship with?
no bf wor....

16. Is No.3 is male or female?
female

17. If No.7 and No.1 get togather, would it be good?
they don't even know each other...no way....

18. What is No.1 studying about?
just finished foundation at MMU

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?
this few days

20. Is No.4 single?
nope....couple and not available...haha...

21. Say something about No.2
the only SAB girl at Uniten....not included me la...

22. What do you thing No.3 and No.6 being togather?
lol...no way...they are both girls la...aiya...

23. Describe No.9
a quite nice girl...

24. What will you do if No.6 and No.7 fight?
how do they fight? they don't know each other....

25. Do you like No.8?
lol...no comment about this question...XD

Sunway Pyramid

2009-05-28T23:23:00.005+08:00

Long time didn't go to Sunway Pyramid ady...
today went there with kaizen (our driver again...XD), alvin, tony, joanne and their friends...
4 cars in total...
quite a number of people...
haha....
then....
they all went for skating except kaizen and me....
I didn't bring shirt and pants to change as I know I sure will fall down...
so I'm staying outside...
eating ice cream (New Zealand Natural ice cream...really nice...next time will try other flavour...) and taking their photos...
^^
we ate our dinner at Wendy's (exactly the same name as my friend's...haha....)....
their franch fries and the shrimp burger really nice!!!
if have Wendy's around next time...
no more McD or KFC ady....
XD

Tony is learning skating...^^

our ice cream--Vanilla Classic, Chocolate Estacy and Cream & Cookies...really delicious....yummy...^^,

Me and the huge Pikachu....XD

p/s : thanks kaizen for being our driver again and thanks for the ice cream....^^

Thank you Miss Madihah

2009-05-26T22:01:00.004+08:00

I'm really lucky because I have 3 best physics tutors from sem 1 until sem 3...
sem 1--Miss Aliayah (dont know the name correct or not...)
sem 2--Miss Yoges
sem 3--Miss Madihah
all of them really good and is fun to be with them...
thanks so much....
^^,

请、谢谢

2009-05-26T21:55:00.001+08:00

请
不要用荒唐的原因来敷衍搪塞
也请
不要把我当作三岁小孩

谢谢

Futsal & Sukaneka Kor Uniten and Kor Uniten Camping

2009-05-24T17:18:00.019+08:00

23/5/2009
Venue: Football Field COIT
Time: 8.00am

Futsal and Sukaneka Kor Uniten...
Hanif is our head of orgarniser for this event...
this is part of the climax of this course (another of course is camping..)...
congrate to Hanif because this event really success although there was some problems happened along the event had been held....
by the way..
I'm one of the urus setia for Hanif....
to help him in one of the sukaneka event--Si Buta Mencari Balloon....
the weather was damn hot and I was sweating all the way...
my shirt was soaked with my sweat...
=_=""
but....
I'm so proud to be one of the member of Platun 5...
because we won 3 events--futsal, Spongebob Games and Si Buta Mencari Balloon....
we were the big winner...
hahaha...
^^,

preparation of Si Buta Mencari Balloon 1

preparation of Si Buta Mencari Balloon 2

Winner of Si Buta Mencari Balloon...PLATUN 5!!!! hehe...^^

p/s : have to say sorry to udin them because their event was boring until Irham and Haziq ran here to have fun with us...hehehe....XD

Time: 3.00pm

On the same day...
we had to "check-in" to BV High Country to have our 2 days 1 night camp...
after setting up the tent...
we cooked for our dinner...
but seriously...
I didn't have any selera to eat....

Hanif in his tent...

Hanif and me

cooking for dinner...

chin shing and me

hana and me

(from left) aileen, suerin, jouee, calvin, kat and yongkang

suddenly...
black clouds and thunders...
a heavy downpour...
we had no choice but stay inside the tent but the rain water started to sip through the tent...
our tent gonna banjir!!!
luckily we put some newspapers at all ends of the tent...
no banjir...
whew...
but another problem...
the tent was so small and we have 8 of us (girls)...
how to sleep???

therefore...
on that particular night...
I was walking here and there...
visiting others tent...
because I don't have a place to sleep...
after have a really "nice" talk with that bengang jurulatih (really feel like wanna kill her...arghh)...
we took out the uppermost sheet of the tent to treat it as alas to sleep....
but both side were wet...
how to sleep???
I'm damn tired and wish to have a sleep but how and where to sleep???
after discussed with Cindy...
we put her sleeping bag on top of that and sleep....
at that time...
it is already 2am...
=_="
lied down...
Calvin's friends started to attack my hands and legs....
leaving beautiful kisses here and there...
I can't stand it!!!
than I woke up...
it is already 4.30am...
decided not to continue my sleep...
walked back to my tent...
ehhh...
got one small space for me to sleep....
baring je la....

24/5/2009
Venue: BV car park
Time: 7.00am

woke up 5.30am...
without any torchlight and in a blur state...
my leg termasuk a big hole and terseliuh...
I'm a careless fellow...
haiz~

having our senaman at the BV car park...
honestly...
we were so weak in our stamina...
XD

after our breakfast (I only ate 2 slices of bread).....
we had our marching test...
I was so nervous as I have to be the leader among the three...
luckily not so bad in the test...
then we also had our Marching Competition among the Platun...
the result will be anounced nex week...
I don't think my Platun will win this...
after the competition...
we straight away went to clear up our camp site...
and of course...
photos session...
taking photos with all my friends and my platun members...
but only one person I didn't take photo with...
quite dissapointed lo...

we gathered at BV Theater with all our camping stuff...
waiting for Tuan Zin to give us approval to dismiss...
when the clock striked 4pm...
we ended our camp and headed to our comfortable bed...

I'm having a great experience and this course surely will benefits us...and here's some random pix....

(from left) kat, me, aileen and chin shing

shuhui and me

members of Platun 5..but not enough people...XD

sorry adrian...only have half of you face...have to improve my photo taking skill ady....XD

my platun sarjan--Nik and me

kaizen and me (with my extra messy hair....XD)

Finished but It's not The End....

2009-05-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

Just finished physics test 2...
no comment about the paper...
just do what I know...
tak peduli right or wrong ady....

well...
tomorrow having Kor Uniten camping...
not feeling like wanna go..
but no choice...
to get good marks for this subject...
have to go also....

wish me luck...
and hoping no too much mosquitoes come to give their kiss...
I hate that!!!
>.<

Smily Day

2009-05-21T16:07:00.002+08:00

I smiled and laughed a lot today...
maybe because I gained my energy after having a 8 hours sleep...
yes....
8 hours...
an ideal sleeping time needed by everyone of us...
that's why today I feel so fresh...
ohya...
thanks to the chicken essence that my mum adviced me to drink also...
I'm not so sleepy already...
yeepee....
after this taking a short nap...
and it's fighting time...
physics!!!!
I'm coming!!!
^^,

Grateful

2009-05-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

All the stuff have to be done making me so stress...
nearly breaking down yesterday...
but...
I'm so grateful that someone is there to listen to me...
thanks so much....
感恩你所做的一切
感恩你抽出宝贵的时间听我倾诉
感恩

甜蜜回忆

2009-05-19T20:23:00.002+08:00

回宿舍的路上
看到了有人在打着羽球
看着她们开心地笑着
让我想起了以前小时候的美好时光

从小
就和我哥很好
一起挖泥土
一起玩积木
一起打篮球
当然啦
最常玩的是羽球

家里宽阔的草地
就是我们玩乐的最佳地点
差不多每天傍晚
一家人都会聚在一起
爸爸打理花草
妈妈晾衣服
姐姐帮这帮那
哥哥和我在打羽球
这些美好时光
就在姐姐和哥哥读书、做工后
很难再重现了

读书的压力
一大堆的东西要处理
真的很累
希望这一切快点过去
真的好想家
好想家里的一切
想念很凶但很疼我的爸爸
想念很体贴我很关心我的妈妈
想念25岁了但还蛮幼稚的姐姐
想念在槟城做工的哥哥
想念所有的这些

家
永远是在我濒临崩溃的最佳支持
永远是我牵挂的
希望他们永远都健健康康的
尤其是妈妈
祈祷她别再生病了
爸爸也是
祈祷他每一天都快快乐乐的
还有姐姐
祈祷她工作顺利，别加班到太迟
最后是哥哥
祈祷他在毕业的那年拿到最佳成绩
最后的最后
所有的家人
祈祷你们都平平安安的
祝福你们

What Happen to Me?

2009-05-18T11:35:00.002+08:00

These few days...
always feeling sleepy...
what the hell is going on?
I hate this....
because when I'm sleepy...
I can't do anything...
I'll definitely in a blurly state...
brain can't function well....
ahh...
hope this end quickly...
say no to sleepiness...
><

Take Care Everybody

2009-05-16T20:42:00.002+08:00

Malaysia have 2 cases of H1N1 flu ady...

Don't forget to drink more water...

anything that not comfortable please see the doctor....

Everybody Take Care!!!!

感觉怪怪的

2009-05-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

听到传闻
心里有点刺痛
可是
始终还是隐藏着这种感觉
微笑是我的选择
我所能做的
就只有这些

表现得不在意
其实在意得很
自卑的自己
没自信的自己
统统都隐藏在微笑的背后

面对这样的事
我始终没自信
我永远都不是被考虑的那一个
也许
这就是我的宿命吧

Careless

2009-05-15T16:28:00.001+08:00

Just finish chemistry test 2...
as usual...
MCQ tembak je....
>.<
and having my bad habit again...
careless mistake....
haiz~
hope I can treat this as a lesson...
next time should check carefully....
>.<

Eating Maniac

2009-05-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

Don't know what happen to me...
these few days....
I'm having a eating maniac...
my dinner today....
nasi goreng honey sesame + mango juice + honey dew + watermelon....
and I'm gonna running out of money with this eating maniac...
>.<

What A Day

2009-05-13T21:07:00.003+08:00

Today have a sudden chemistry quiz...
can't do the questions...
haiz~
result of not studying...
this friday will have my chemistry test 2...
last minutes study again...
don't know how to change my this really bad habit....
=_=""

Just now went for moral replacement class...
actually is combined with another section...
as usual the class still very boring...
but Mr Hamizi said the final exam questions very difficult...
haiz~

p/s : hope I can sleep well tonight...telling myself don't think too much about those "things" that suerin told me just now....

MUET Speaking Test

2009-05-11T14:46:00.002+08:00

Today speaking test....
conclusion...
die, mati, 完蛋, seijor (whatever language you know)....
meaning....
hancur already....
I think I'm the worst among my sis and bro....
down~~~~~~~
disappointing my mum again....
wuaaaa~~~~~

慈济卫塞节浴佛日

2009-05-10T14:14:00.004+08:00

这个星期的露营挪后了，所以决定和慈青学长们--名伟、晒得非常黑像印度人的起铭、美燕、添福、佑明等等去Bukit Jalil Indoor Stadium参加一年一度的浴佛日。早上五点多就起身了，等着名伟来载我。

第一次参加慈济举办的浴佛日，场面真的很盛大，当然少不了庄严的气氛。等待浴佛典礼的开始，我们站了足足有一个小时，脚真的很酸。>.<在师姐的提醒下，我们记着浴佛的步骤，唱着《赞佛偈》等歌曲，浴佛典礼就圆满结束了。

以为这一切就结束了，可是我们穿着慈青“蓝天白云”的制服，工作的时间就到了。因为我们不是执委，所以就东跑跑、西跑跑的帮其他的慈青、学长姐们或师姑师伯的忙。陆陆续续到来的人们真得好多，而从他们的表情看来，他们都是带着虔诚的心来浴佛，祈祷每天都平平安安的。

然后有5个慈青，包括我，被一位学姐带进了浴佛区，帮忙维持秩序。这一站，三个小时又过去了。因为我们都必须一直维持着合掌的姿势，我的妈呀，我的肩膀好酸哦，脚也好酸，加上肚子又好饿，真的很辛苦叻，可是还好有其他的慈青来换班了，终于可以吃午餐咯。可是可能是饿过头了吧，没有什么胃口吃饭了。>.<

吃完午饭，我觉得我不能待到下午四点了，太累了，所以就再次麻烦名伟载我回宿舍咯。经过这次的浴佛，让我的心灵得到了洗涤和沉淀，希望所有的不美好就这样过去了，让我期待着更好的明天。

最后，没有什么照片能贴在这里，因为在浴佛区是禁止拍照的，所以就只有我自己的照片啦。XD

在名伟的车里，在回宿舍的路上了

我和慈青制服 XD

p/s : 名伟和美燕竟然是男女朋友了耶。。真得吓到我了啦。。无论如何祝福你们咯 ^^,

Harry Potter 6 The Half-Blood Prince

2009-05-10T00:01:00.006+08:00

Harry Potter fans out there...
you surely are waiting for this 6th movie of Harry Potter series...
well...
this July you can watch it....
and I'm looking forward this movie after watching the movie trailer....
^^

Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince

Genre:Fantasy, Action and Adventure
Director:David Yates
Cast:Daniel Radcliffe, Rupert Grint, Emma Watson, Jim Broadbent

Voldemort is tightening his grip on both the Muggle and wizarding worlds and Hogwarts is no longer the safe haven it once was. Harry suspects that dangers may even lie within the castle, but Dumbledore is more intent upon preparing him for the final battle that he knows is fast approaching. Together they work to find the key to unlock Voldemort’s defenses and, to this end, Dumbledore recruits his old friend and colleague, the well-connected and unsuspecting bon vivant Professor Horace Slughorn, whom he believes holds crucial information. Meanwhile, the students are under attack from a very different adversary as teenage hormones rage across the ramparts. Harry finds himself more and more drawn to Ginny, but so is Dean Thomas. And Lavender Brown has decided that Ron is the one for her, only she hadn’t counted on Romilda Vane’s chocolates! And then there’s Hermione, simmering with jealously but determined not to show her feelings. As romance blossoms, one student remains aloof. He is determined to make his mark, albeit a dark one. Love is in the air, but tragedy lies ahead and Hogwarts may never be the same again.

Trailer 1

Trailer 2

Trailer 3

How many things to go???

2009-05-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

3 more weeks then is my final exam...
this sem is the most tiring sem for me although the subjects are quite relax....
just finish my calculus test 2....
luckily the questions quite ok....
but waiting me ahead....
MUET speaking test, english persuasive speech, chemistry test 2, physics test 2, chemistry presentation, moral presentation, KOR Uniten camping, final exam.....
so many things....
haiz~
hope I can handle all these....
=_=""

Not Ready....T_T

2009-05-07T21:07:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my calculus test 2...
I haven't do any of my revision yet...
sort of no mood, lazy and sleepy...
haiz~
hope my study mood will come back earlier....

No Internet Day...

2009-05-05T15:29:00.002+08:00

Don't know what happen to the proxy server...

I5 can't have internet...

arghhh....

5 days no internet...

that's suck....

>.<

Informative Speech...Done...^^

2009-04-29T15:34:00.002+08:00

Finally today is my turn to present my informative speech...
so nervous...
I'm really trembling....
my topic is "The Difference between Woodwind and Brass Instruments"
seems it is a quite boring topic...
but luckily...
it is not so boring for my classmates as I thought....
everything turns out well....

and we have a quite "strong" taste for today presentation...
Aric and Alfred presented "The Benefits of Kissing"...
Foo Kit and Yon Yi presented "The Use of the Condom"....ehemmm...
and...
Michael and Zhi Kwang presented "The Benefits of having Sex"....
well....
those topics are really....
errr....
XD

but Mr Azam quite puzzled by our performances...
and he is still wondering...
why we done well in impromptu speech but not for this informative speech?
padahal impromptu speech title is given 5 minutes before the presentation...
not like the informative speech as we have sufficient time to prepare....
maybe as one of my classmate said...
we tend to memorize all the facts and info that would be given to the audience and unexpectedly neglect the ways to deliver the speech...
or maybe as Mr Azam said...
we are given too long time to prepare the speech....
we should work under pressure...
but I think...
the most accurate reason is...
we are lack of practice....
so...
Mr Azam hope in the next persuasive speech...
we can practice more and do well in that...

anyway...
thanks my pair--Intan for making this speech a success...
thanks zul for making a demonstration to the class of how to "buzzing"....
thank you very much...
^^,

p/s : at last I show them the video also....but not the whole video because of lacking of time....

Nervous + Scare

2009-04-28T23:51:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be my turn to present the informative speech...
so nervous and scare...
I don't know whether my topic will be boring for others or not....
really worry about this...
and I'm still wondering wanna give them to watch the video or not...
because the video was not well recorded...
and the sound is...
errr.....
=_="'

wish me luck for tomorrow...
good night...
time to get a good sleep....
zzzZZZ....

Tired Outing...

2009-04-26T18:35:00.009+08:00

After thinking twice...
I decided to join udin to PWTC--bookfair...
well...
first time met iefa (udin's girlfriend)...
honestly...
she looks so different compared to the photo...
honestly...
real person is more beautiful...
and I didn't expect she looks so kecik compared with me....
hihi ^^,
before heading to KL Sentral...
we wait for the KTM for about one an hour....
that's sucks....
then...
met iefa at KL Sentral....
after eating lunch at McD...
we went to PWTC....

first...
I had a new handphone number...
Celcom UPAX....
and after settle all the things...
we headed to the bookfair...
the crowd at the bookfair had make me no mood to buy books...
so I just hanging around with both of them...
finished walking at about 2.45pm...
after they performed their prayers...
we went to The Mall Secret Recipe...
udin had a supprise for iefa--couple rings....
so sweet....
(I kat sana macam kacau je.....>.<)
then...
of course...
photo session...
but I'll only post iefa and my photos...
for further photos and story...
can visit these links--
http://fakhruddin-azzahrawi.blogspot.com/2009/04/theres-no-word-that-can-describe-my.html
http://waniefa91.blogspot.com/2009/04/happysmile-laughtired-p.html

about 5pm it's time to go back...
again...
waiting for KTM about one an hour...
ngantuk tu....
then...
we became "sardine" in the KTM again....
udin and me stop at serdang and iefa will take the KTM til Seremban..
udin dah sedih nak pisah dengan iefa....
but nevermind udin...
believe me...
you two still have chance to meet again...
^^

me and iefa....^^

MUET Test

2009-04-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

Well...
today finished my MUET test...
one word...
die....

nearly two years didn't write for english essay...
result...
not enough idea + not enough time during the test....
by the way...
overall I don't know I can get what band...
just waiting for 11th May--speaking test...
hope I can do well in this section...

ok...
that's all for today...
wanna take a nap (or sleep until tomorrow morning...haha...XD)....
because today woke up too early in the morning....
see ya....

说话与听话

2009-04-24T18:41:00.003+08:00

"人与人不和的原因何在？其实人多意见多，难免会有观念、见解不和之时；若彼此没有包容、善解之心，就会互相排斥，这是人际失和的致命伤。

许多人都知道慈济四神汤--知足、感恩、善解、包容。虽然很多人都能朗朗上口，但更希望大家能将慈济四神汤落实在日常生活中；不但仅用在自己身上，也要用在亲友之间。千万不要因为一点小事就钻牛角尖，一旦陷入观念分歧的漩涡里，往往会对自他造成阻碍。

人与人之间要如何达成良性互动呢？首先，好好讲话与听话是必要的。说话时要用心，要自我期许自己所说的每句话，都是慧命的养分；而不是乱倒言语垃圾，四处去污染别人的心灵。

如何听话也很重要。听到好的话要吸收应用，将它作为自身慧命的养分;听到不好的话，若能当作警惕，一样能滋养我们的慧命，所以，听话时也要很用心。不要别人一句无心的话，自己却有心的钻牛角尖，不断认为别人：你是有心伤害我！这样是将别人无心的话当做毒素，造成自己心灵的创伤。这将是多么辛苦、烦恼的人生！

建立良好人际关系的撇步：好好说话，用心听话。"

谢谢陈煜学长给我这篇短文，让我不再多想。事情发生了，没办法回头。往后的日子，“小心说话，用心聆听”将是我的座右铭。在痛苦的人生路上，只有往前走，勇敢地往前走，就算在路上狠狠的摔了一跤，也要不怕痛的站起来，再勇敢地踏出另一步。慈济四神汤--知足、感恩、善解、包容，我会努力的实践在我的生命中，就算再次听到、读到残忍的言语，我都会吸收以变成滋养自己的慧明。再次感恩学长花时间打出这篇短文给我。

Messy Day....

2009-04-21T20:26:00.002+08:00

First--
Miss Elya got mad today in class again...
please la...
is it so difficult to switch off or put silent mode on your handphone???
ishk2....

Second--
this is especially to calvin...
really sorry that put you into trouble...
kidding really can create misunderstanding...
forgive me....
sorry...
sorry...
sorry...
sorry...
sorry...
sorry...

Third.--
don't know why today really sleepy...
just a short nap..
making me nearly late for Kor Uniten....
walked really fast to library...
reached there on time..
but wait until 5pm just began our acitivities...
so..
buat saya penat jalan je...
=_=""

that's all about today...
wanna sleep already...
(-_-)zzzZZZ

Short Outing

2009-04-20T15:31:00.007+08:00

Because of wanna settle my CIMB account...
I went to The Mines after my physics class....
reached there about 12.10 noon....
well....
wanna praise CIMB Bank...
I unable to dispense RM1000 on 1st April...
according to the account balance that printed out...
3rd April CIMB Bank had reverse back my money into my account...
thank you of your efficiency....
^^

after settle all the things...
lunch time....
having my lunch at Kenny Roger's Roaster...
quarter meal with 3 small dishes + iced lemon tea...
we ate nearly for 1 hour in that comfortable surrounding...
chit-chatting....
after finishing our meal...
we went to Big Apple Donuts & Coffee to buy some donuts as our snack...
then...
we kept walking up and down without destination....
and it is time to go back Uniten as we are so sleepy...
on the taxi...
I told my friend, "Everybody is still in the class, but we already enjoy ourselves at The Mines....hahaha...."
sorry to those who having many class on Monday...
hihi....
=D

quarter meal with 3 small dishes

Big Apple Donuts & Coffee!!! ^^

my donuts...the chocolate cair already la....T_T (result of waiting taxi under the hot sun...)

How many times you wanna hurt me?

2009-04-19T18:41:00.002+08:00

Disappointed and disappointed....
nothing I can say...
the only word that can describe my feeling is--disappointment.....
seems like you still not realize....
you are still not realize what you have done....
you are still not realize what you have said something that is not the truth....
you are still not realize you are making me into trouble with all the nonsense you told others....
do I owe you something???
why you done such a thing to hurt me???
should I continue to believe you???
the trust that I had given to you...
why should you crush it into pieces???
friendship...
the most important thing between friendship...
is "trust"...
if the "trust" being crunch into pieces....
how do I treat you as my friend again???

Trust

2009-04-14T21:05:00.003+08:00

To everybody out there,

I now swear...
I'll not do something that will betray all my friends....
I hate being misunderstand by others...
I'm not that kind of person...
I'll not do that kind of things...
please...
open up our eyes and see the truth...
I'm begging you all....
and...
to that particular person that makes me into trouble...
you make me so disappointed....
this is the first time someone that I trusted so much betraying me...
saying something that is not true to others...
and saying something that I didn't say before...
and hurting me again and again...
I'll not trust you anymore....

Dairy of A Half-Day Volunteer

2009-04-12T13:39:00.004+08:00

Well....
no chance go to Port Dickson...
discussion plan for informative speech due to certain problem being cancelled...
no mood to study calculus...
therefore...
this weekend is the most lonely weekend...
but suddenly...
my senior--Seak messaged me....
asking me whether wanna join them to go to a orphanage as the Buddhist Tzu-Chi Volunteer....
before this I rejected because of the reasons above...
but maybe God wanna let me to do some charity work...
so...
I changed my mind...
I decided to join them....

when I reached there...
looking into the baby room...
I thought not many of the baby...
but...
oh my God...
there are about 8 baby beds...
every bed is quite big...
and every beds have maximum 3 babies...
and mostly just about 1-6 months babies....
really sad when I saw that....
they all don't have parents...
can you imagine you born without your parents beside you???

then...
it is the time for us to accompany others children...
they are being divided into various small group...
one of the volunteer will take care of 3 to 4 children...
teached them how to complete a card through some pasting and gumming....

well....
I don't know whether I'm lucky or unlucky...
I have to take care of 4 children...
as we know...
they are orphan...
no parents...
no one will teach them manner properly...
as one of the senior said...
a child that grow up in this kind of environment...
their ego-ness is much more greater than a normal child...
as a result...
it's really hard to control them...
they can't stand sharing things with others....
just a short waiting to take turn to use the scissors..
they will also end up in a fight...

by the way...
one of the little girl in my group--Tasha...
she was crying the whole process of doing the card...
nobody understand and knows why she was crying...
she just kept crying and crying...
many seniors asked her why...
she replied you with her cry...
just taking care of her...
comfort her...
advice her to finish the card...
I nearly freak out...
and...
really exhausted...
but another girl--Sofiah...
she is very obedient and will listen to your instructions...
another girl--Salini...
she just ran away and I've no idea where she go...
until the activity ended...
I still can't find her....
~sweat~

after being a volunteer here...
I just know how lucky, how fortunate am I...
I can have my lovely parents always besides me...
I can have my sis and bro...
I can have a chance to grow up in a good environment...
I can have a chance to study until this stage...
I should cherish all of them...
hope this dairy of a volunteer will enlighten you all...
out there...
there are so many people that is living in a quite bad condition...
therefore...
no matter what no matter how...
we should cherish every single thing that appear in our life...
appreciate it....
because maybe someone will not have the chance to get all that...

p/s: during the activity...I saw a girl...crawling on the floor...not a baby...a child...she is crawling just because she has no legs...T_T

p/s: thanks Seak for fetching me...感恩....^^

Alone Again

2009-04-10T23:01:00.005+08:00

Although I said I don't care....

Although I said I'm ok....

actually....

I'm crying....

but I don't want you all know....

because I want you all to have fun there....

next opportunity to outing with you all....

I think is nearly zero....

we are so busy....

p/s : thanks iefa...really thank you so much for accompanying me when I'm so lonely...^^

Back Again

2009-04-10T08:12:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night before went to sleep...
shit....
my stomach...
having gastric again....
so many gas....
so painful....
and now I just realize...
the medicine that I brought here....
is paracetamol!!!!
not the gastric medicine--magnesium trisilicate (anyone that study chemistry please noted that...I'm eating alkali...)
now...
my stomach still fill with gas....
so uncomfortable...
feel like wanna vomit anytime....
nobody take care of me here...
so lonely.....
I WANT MY MAMA!!!!!!

wuaaaaa.......

Tough Decision

2009-04-08T15:38:00.002+08:00

This week is crap....
tomorrow having my physics test 1....
haven't do revision yet...
tomorrow having my english quiz...
friday is my chemistry test 1...
same thing...
haven't do revision yet...
calculus have to retest...
and....
this weekend...
eagerly wanted to join hana, udin, zul and others sem 1 friends to Port Dickson...
but...
another problem came...
because of lack of preparation in the informative speech...
Mr Azam is so disappointed with us....
and I'm also one of them....
really regret....
Mr Azam trust us so much...
but we still not doing our best....
and...
by next week...
we have to submit our outline already...
so I had do a tough decision...
I've to let go the opportunity to enjoy and reunion with my sem 1 friends....
really sad about it....
but no choice...
I've to complete the outline with my pair--Intan....
haiz~

p/s: to udin and the gang....enjoy your weekend....I can't join you all...T_T

Boiling...

2009-04-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

Hot topic to discuss within the foundation students---re-test calculus....
well...
I'm not going to tell the story here...
I just wanna say that....
anything happened...
always is the students suffer...
not the lecturers....
this is just a really little small case....
why have to do such a big havoc???
is it worth it???
or it is just giving others problems???
please think about it....
I already know who's that person to report this case to Mdm Zarina....
and there is another Chinese girl from my section that do the complain to HEP....
I don't know who that girl actually...
and I don't want to know who's that....
but....
in conclusion....
really tension about this incident....
feel like wanna tumbuk orang....

p/s : thanks kaizen from taking us out for dinner and thanks for not speeding on the highway....XD

Formula 1 Rocks!!!!

2009-04-05T22:56:00.017+08:00

With RM100 student price ticket (normal price is RM500--RM2000)....
I'm at the Sepang International Circuit to watch 2009 Formula 1 Petronas Malaysia Grand Prix...
well...
first time reach there....
and start snaping photos....
but this is not a quite good experience...
because all the people no chance to watch the drivers finishing 56 laps....
the weather is damn hot at first....
but suddenly...
black clouds formed in the sky....
then after that....
heavy downpour....
the track is so slippery....
4 drivers experienced spinning on the circuit and 2 crashed...
and the rain is really too heavy...
the race is cancelled....
the drivers only finished 31 laps....
Jenson Button (Brawn-Mercedes) won the race again after winning 2009 Formula 1 ING Australian Grand Prix on 29 March 2009....
Nick Heidfeld (BMW Sauber) 2nd place and Timo Glock (Toyota) 3rd place....

by the way...
because of the heavy rain...
the parking place is full of mud....
bloody hell...
my shoes....
T_T

here are some photos and a video of the warming up of all the drivers (kindly reminded that, if you wish to watch this video, please reduce the volume of your speaker...because it's quite loud...)

really full of people....XD

Ferrari booth....

Mercedes-Benz cars display....well...this is the most beautiful among the all...my bad...I forget to take down the car model...XD

my seat is just beside the finishing track.....

See the crowd...XD

precious pix of the race car during the race....because the speed is so fast...it's really hard to capture....

race car in the heavy downpour....

garage for the race car...act as the pit stop....

muddy shoes...T_T

my ticket and the spectators' guide....^^

One Down

2009-04-05T11:03:00.002+08:00

Well...
just came back from library...
just finished my calculus test 1....
looking at the questions...

ok....
next time I'll do all the revision exercises from Mr Zailan....
because....
all the questions are totally, exactly the same!!!!

by the way...
two more test to go...
but...
I haven't touch anything yet...

wish me luck ya...
^^

他和她

2009-04-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

原来
心痛的感觉是这样的
希望心里的伤口
快点愈合吧
我无法再承受更多了
否则
可能在下一刻
就不知倒地了

现在
寂寞的心
就只能用功课、考试
麻醉自己
也许到了某一天
心痛的感觉
也就麻木了
麻木了就不在意了
不在意了就能安然的做朋友了吧

Help.....

2009-04-04T09:45:00.005+08:00

Everything go smoothly at first.....

Then all get stuck when coming to 10.6.....

Please.....

Let me have some idea.....

I need to score.....

by the way....

Good Luck All My Friends......

[offline]

...

...

April Fool

2009-04-02T08:08:00.002+08:00

Well...
first time no people fooling around, making lame joke on April Fool....
but then...
the CIMB ATM at the library was making a fool on me yesterday....
card keluar, duit tak keluar, tolak balance saya pulak tu.....
damn shit!!!
waiting there for about half an hour....
duit tak keluar keluar....
I can't leave there like that...
because I'm taking out a large amount of money....
if suddenly the money pop out like that?
then really is April Fool...
wait and wait...
ATM jam....
lastly...
called the CIMB helpline...
I have to go to the nearest CIMB bank to do a report, and reverse back the money....
well...
luckily with the help of hana...
I manage to settle all the things....

p/s: Thanks hana for fetching me to The Mines CIMB....Thanks udin for lending me your handphone to call the CIMB helpline as my handphone short of credit...Thanks my bro for helping to solve this situation....THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!

The Last "Contestant" ^^

2009-04-01T17:47:00.004+08:00

The last person in my class to have his impromptu speech--Zul...
but my bad...
I didn't record full of his presentation...
handphone battery flat...
and one more....
I don't know how to adjust it to turn clockwise as I took this video with vertical angle...
arghhhh....
so just turn your neck whatever angle you like to watch this video...
anyway...
this video is a mess...
and full of my loud and high pitch laughter...
get ready something that can cover your ears....
XD
by the way...
well done Zul....
you done a quite well job ya...
^^

p/s : just now went to COIT with hana and peah...looking them running under a good weather...ishk2...but udin...I thought you'll finished it very fast..but..you know what's your marks la...kakakakaka....=P

Scorching Sun...

2009-03-31T19:36:00.002+08:00

YES!!!
finished 2.4km....
but today really hot...
the big hot sun on top of the head...
with the sweat...
I managed to finish it...
but so tired...
still got <17.01 minutes...
=_=""
my stamina really not like before....
pening + rasa nak muntah after the run...
but...
tonight I sure will have a good sleep....
XD

Moody Day

2009-03-31T13:24:00.003+08:00

Yesterday incident...
making me totally no mood to study today...
my body is in the class....
but my soul nearly not there...
swinging mood...
unstable mood...
laughing loudly but it is just surface...
inside me...
so unhappy...
so moody...
after talking with udin...
during the calculus tutorial class...
suddenly feel like wanna cry...
tears nearly drop...
but I have to be strong...
no crying just because of one person that doesn't love you...
lots of lots of apologies...
it's no use...
we can't paksa someone to love us...
it is just we don't have the fate to be together...

lastly...
the only thing I can do...
I'll bless you...
getting your true love...
and remember that...
there's once...
a girl that loves you so much....
giving all her ability to cherish you without pleading paying back...
please remember her....

p/s : this is the time to give up love...it is the signer from God...concentrating in study..no more other things to interrupt my study....

by the way...thanks udin and shuhui to be my listener...thanks for always be with me when hard time comes...thanks both of you...appreciate it....

I don't like today....

2009-03-30T23:52:00.004+08:00

Who knows the feeling of broken heart?

Who hear the sound of my broken heart?

No one knows....

and...

No one cares...

Truth...

is bloodiness...

I totally don't like today...

Scary Day

2009-03-30T17:05:00.003+08:00

With a good mood today...
wearing skirt to class...
but then...
everything changed...
when....
someone's handphone ringing while Miss Elya's class was going to start....
well...
Miss Elya was saying how teruk is our quiz, our attire before that....
after the ringing of the handphone...
her face totally turned into anger....
she even broke the "penunjuk" into two...
that is made from metal...
she can broke it...
that means she was totally very angry....
then...
the following class continue with her silent...
she just put the slide on the OHP...
without saying or teaching anything....
that's really scary....
I think that is the longest 1-hour class that I ever had....
=(

~scary~

Losing Temper...

2009-03-28T14:46:00.001+08:00

well...
looking back the previous post...
hmmm....
I really have to control my anger....
actually after you posted that particular post on your blog...
I forgave you already....
remember what I told you before?
I can't even get angry on you too long....
we are not God...
we will always done mistakes....
so....
next time be careful when typing ya....
don't like me....
Few weeks past....
I'm still in the blur state....
><

Feed Me With Fresh Blood!!!

2009-03-27T12:21:00.003+08:00

How many times already????
10 fingers also not enough to count it!!!!!
always is a boy wait for a girl!!!!
but you????
waiting you under the big hot sun!!!!
can you imagine the heat????
AGHHHHHH!!!!!

~cooling down~
~cooling down~
~cooling down~
~cooling down~
~cooling down~

Not Ready Yet

2009-03-27T11:30:00.002+08:00

As time goes....Bye...
yes...
time flies...
next week is my Test 1....
and I'm totally not ready yet...
especially chemistry...
I don't know whether I can do it or not...
this is the first time I've doubt in my ability in this subject...
hope I can go through this....
physics...
as usual...
fright still remain unchanged...
calculus...
seems like this sem is much more easier than previous 2 sem...
but the question also can be very tough...

p/s: come back, my super-duper study mood!!!!!!