New Year, New Thought , New Wishes

Let me conclude my year 2008....
this is the most terrible year in my life....
not so good.....
here is the list.....

1. January-March
After SPM, everyday at home sleep, eat, watch DVD and sleep again.....thought will gain weight(this is my wish) but less 1 kg pulak.....
2. March
Got my SPM result, me alone.....nobody with me....my parents at China....my result luckily still ok....
3. April-May
Apply for JPA scholarship, UTP interview.....all kinds of universities and scholarship....at last....all failed and my last choice...here...UNITEN....
4. Jun
Accept the offer to come Uniten....one week orientation....then begin my new life here....
5. July-October
Begin my 1st semester...new environment....new friends....but in between there is a lots of things happen.....1st time outing with my best friends then my hp stolen by somebody at the KTM, 1st time have gossip, 1st time get the most terrible result in my life, and many many more.....
6. November
2nd semester begin....seperate with my 2 best friends....this sem is so busy and a lot of homework always waiting for me....everyday have to wake up early in the morning to finish it....then the most unhappy thing happened....I'll not say it again...let the time take it away.....
7. December
My birthday month but I'm having 2 test before my birthday....really a big "present" for me...but luckily I can manage to handle it...and the MPO is the belated birthday present for me....
8. 31st December
The last day in 2008...but I'm so boring and nothing to do...most of my friends go back home....and I didn't do any countdown....I just call my 2 best friends borak with them and then that's all....the most boring new year I ever had.....

01.01.2009
a new year begin....
new wishes coming through my mind....
hoping all the wishes will come true....
and hoping this is a brand new start for me because year 2008 is really not my year....
so many unhappy things happen without warning.....
anyway....
wanna wish all my friends...
Happy New Year 2009!!!!!

To all my friends and classmate...of course my best friend...

I tak boleh tahan already.....
stop that annoying smile....
stop saying that 3 words....
that is just kidding la....
aiya.....

I think I'm like the trouble maker....
1st semester with udin....
2nd semester with arm....
then...
3rd semester with who????
aiya....

last word....
stop everything....
and again....
who say that 3 words....
then I'll say...
no comment~~

Got the Photos......

Just after MPO...taking photo with Dr Chua(the most right)....everybody is so gorgeous that night.....


I'm so short among the seniors....especially among the girls....because their high heels is really "high" heels....

Coughing Badly....

Last Thursday...
I reached my home...
and I had a nap in the afternoon...
just woke up from the nap...
I'm having sore throat already...
a sudden sore throat....
before that no uncomfortable at all...
nothing...
then had sore throat....
and that lead to cough....
until today...
I'm coughing badly....
throat still very pain.....
eating medicine already...
but still like that....
I hate coughing...
because I need longer time to recover compare when I'm having flu or cold....
5 days holidays also not enough time for me to recover...
wish me recover quickly....
haiz~

Tagged by Zul

Tonight is a tagged night for me....
5 days didn't online really freaking me out...
because now I just know another person tagged me---zul....
as you wish...
I also answer those question la....

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My Top 10 Most Favourite Food:
1-10 All my mum's cook and all is chinese food....so if I list out you all also don't understand....so don't need la...

10 Things I Love to Do:
1. Reading story books
2. Playing piano
3. Sleeping
4. Listen to music
5. Singing
6. Blogging
7. Watching TV shows
8. Spending most of the time with my family
9. Eating
10. Cooking

5 Things I Love to Do when I'm EMO:
1. Blogging
2. Chatting with my best friend
3. Sleeping
4. Eating chocolate
5. Screaming

5 Things I Love to Do when I'm Happy:
1. Laugh out loud
2. Keep chatting with others
3. Singing
4. Playing piano
5. Keep talking with my mum

5 Things I wish to Happen:
1. A guy that love me so much appear in my life
2. Travel or backpack to many countries
3. Stay beside my family forever
4. Having my own grand piano
5. Having my own alto saxophone

My Top 10 Most Addicted Playlist:
1. High School Musical
2. Just Wanna Be With You
3. Can I Have This Dance
4. When There Was Me And You
5. Start Of Something New
6. 巫启贤--团圆
7. 林志炫--不要问
8. 伍思凯--分享
9. 无印良品--掌心
10. 无印良品--朋友

Persons I wish to Tag:
1. Udin
2. Iefa
3. Arm
4. Zie

Tagged by Udin...again...haiz

First time being tagged by using BM...
my BM is not so good la....
so I'll answer in English....
hihihi....

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1. Anda rasa anda hot?
Hot??? I don't think so....

2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda.
Lazy....

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
I don't know because I didn't upload....

4. Bila kali terakhir kamu makan pizza?
Long long time ago....the last gathering with Aisyah and Lia before Aisyah shift house to Pahang, before Lia come to Unisel....Miss them so much!!!!!

5. Lagu terakhir yang kamu dengar?
梁静茹-丝路...it's a chinese song....don't know nevermind....

6. Apa yang anda sedang buat sekarang ini selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
Online.....

7. Selain nama kamu sendiri, apakah lagi nama yang kamu suka orang panggil kamu?
Ah Bee...only my family allow to call me this name....hihihi....

8. Tag lagi empat orang:
1. Arm
2. Sue Wei
3. Zie
4. Ija

9. Siapa orang nombor satu?
My another best friend...unexpected best friend....^^

10. Katakan sesuatu berkenaan orang nombor empat.
A sweet girl....my friend in Uniten....taking E&E engineering...

11. Bagaimana pula orang nombor tiga?
Same class with Udin...taking Mechanical Engineering....

12. Siapakah orang nombor dua?
My ex-classmate....a girl that likes to eat ice-cream...hahaha...

Tagged by Udin and Zie

1. Name a person. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
Siti Aisyah Bt Abu Bakar...my buddy....

2. Your five impressions towards him/her?
Kind, nice, caring, a badminton lover and like to chit-chat

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you?
Many...we done most of our memorable and craziest things during secondary school time....

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you?
"I miss you so much"

5. If he/she becomes your lover, you will....
Lover?? I'm not lesbian...hahaha....

6. If he/she becomes your enemy...
She will never ever be my enemy.....

7. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve/overcome on...
Again...I don't need to answer this question....^^

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
Something wrong some where.....

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
Give her a big supprise on her birthday....

10. The overall impression of him/her...
She is a really good friend....

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Boyish??? Love to laugh??? Talking too loud???

12. The character of you like for yourself is?
Happy-go-lucky....

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Too soft hearted....

14. The most person that you wanna be is?
I wanna be myself....

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something to them.
Thanks and I'll appreciate it....

16. Ten people to tag:-
1. Arm
2. Farah
3. Sue Wei
4. Su Jia
5. Kai Xin
6. Haziq
7. Zul
8. Hanif
9. Ija
10. Nazrin

17. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
Hahaha...I don't know.....

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female

19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
Sorry...they are not gay....

20. How about no. 5 and 8?
They don't know each other....

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
Foundation in Electrical and Electronic Engineering....

22. Is no. 4 single?
I think so....long time didn't contact with her already....

23. Say something about no. 6.
A guy that is totally different from Semester 1....

Tagged by Udin

Just five days didn't online...
and...
3 tags...
ok....
as you wish....
I'll post 3 those....

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1. If your love betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Get angry...then???

2. If you have a dream comes true, what would it be?
Of course having my own grand piano and alto saxophone.....

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
People that I hate....

4. What would you do with billion of dollars?
Donate all to the charity....

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Maybe...maybe not....don't know...God knows....

6. Which one is more blessed: loving someone or being love by someone?
Both....

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Wait for my whole life....

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what will you do?
Let it go....bless him.....

9. If you like to act with someone, who will he/she be? Your bf/gf or an actor/actress?
Of course actor la....my idol--Raymond Lam....^^

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Chocolate....

11. How would you, yourself be in upcoming ten years?
Travel around the world, married and have a happy family.....

12. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
The one that's have no work to do....

13. Would you be single and rich or married but poor?
I don't mind....

14. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Look at the time...if still early..sleep again then sleep until automatically wake up....

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
I'll give all my heart....

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you choose?
Let the two be my best friends...no choice....because I can't hurt both....

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how terrible a thing that someone has done to you?
Yes...but if beyond my limitation...sorry...no way...

18. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Until this stage is prefer having a relationship...but no one wants me....:'(

19. List of five people to tagg:
Zie, Arm, Zul, Farah and Sue Wei

Holiday finish....

3pm departed from my hometown-Muar....
but then...
I reached Uniten at 7.30pm....
usually 2 hours journey....
today until 4 and a half hours....
holidays....
really happy...
but on the way back to KL....
nightmare....
traffic jam in Malaysia is common....
and is really "beautiful" scene when you see the long car queue up at the highway...
wow....
just like there is no end....
finally my bro decided not to take the highway to avoid the traffic jam...
so...
here am I...
finally came back to Uniten...
really tired...
tomorrrow resume class....
holiday finish....

Too Obvious

A few days before this...
someone added me at my msn...
at first I really no idea who is it...
but after looking at his name...
yes...
is his....
I know him...
really shock.....
why he add me???
then I just accept him to my messenger list...
before this I really no idea why he suddenly add me...
but just now...
everything is just the same as my imagination...
actually...
he just wanna get more close to the other friend of mine through me....
let's call the guy as A and the girl as B....

first of all...
when we having the chat...
A not always but frequently ask about B and wanna know more....
as I'm not so close to B...
then I really don't know how to answer him....

then....
after nearly one week...
today he finally ask for B's handphone number...
as I said before...
I'm not so close with B(but A thought I'm very close with her....)
but finally I also manage to help him....
I gave A her number because I know him....
A is a good guy....
good in study and love to backpack and traveling....
before this I kept asking him is it fall on B...
he kept avoiding my question...
but finally he admitted....
sorry la....
Mr A....
you actually too obvious already la....
you say I'm still a kid...
no need to know...
but I've so many boy's friends...
my two best friends also boy....
so I know more than you know ok?
hahaha....
and for Mr A....
you don't need to have my handphone number to cover up your actual purpose la....
when you first added me and talk about B a few times...
I know what your final target already....
hihihihi....
hope you and B can be friend and maybe more than that....
kakaka.....^^

Thankful....^^

Just now I went to take my chemistry test 1 result....
such a release after seeing the marks....
26/30....
quite satisfied with it but it's lower than my expectation....
as I said before...
the MCQ really hard and there you are...
the 4 marks that have been deducted is from MCQ....
I really don't know why everytime I can't score in MCQ....
since from Primary 6 until now...
hmmm.....

anyway...
through this post...
I wanna thanks Prof Madya Dr Rose Aini....
my chemistry lecturer....
she is so clear when explaining the notes in the class....
she is so kind that you can ask her any question about chemistry...
she is quite funny when teaching in the class....
she also likes to share her experience with us....
so...
Thanks Dr Rose!!!!

p/s: I think next semester I'll take back her....of course....^^

I really Hate Myself....

Yesterday just got my calculus test 1 result....
first time saw it....
really happy...
it's rather than estatic....
I got 42/50....
such a high marks and I really feel like my affort had paid off...
but after Dr Ahmad discussing and giving the answer...
I realized the last question Dr Ahmad marked wrongly....
the radius I wrote and determined correct...
but I minus it wrongly....
on that moment....
I really wanna punch myself....
angle and devil in my heart began to argue....
is it necessary to say to Dr Ahmad let him remark again or just keep my mouth shut?
then zul asked me a question,"Do you want the marks or honesty?"
first time I answer him,"I want the marks..."
but after that I think back...
it's so unfair to the others....
and....
chinese also say that...
人在做，天在看
(how the human behave, there is someone up there looking at us)
so...
at last...
I decided to hand up again the test paper to Dr Ahmad to remark it again....
maybe many people will say I'm so silly.....
it's better keep the mouth shut then let it be...
I also thought like that...
but deep inside my heart...
I'll feel really guilty...
because when I was in primary school....
just because I wanna get full marks for the paper...
I change the answer and said my teacher marked wrongly...
that's the worst thing I ever done in my whole life....
being punished and scolded by my teacher and my parents...
from that day onwards...
I dare not tell lie anymore....
and if necessary I'll tell the truth....

so although I'm so depressed today....
it's not all about the marks...
is about my carelessness....
really blaming myself damn so much...
but what can I do?
nothing...
therefore...
again..
let it be...
because I can't change anything...

What's my Name's Hidden Meaning?

You Are Unique and Inspired

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are. You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth. You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

is it true?
I think most of it la....
let you all determine....^^

I've done a mistake again....

Just finish reading his post....
really feel bad....
now I finally know what's the meaning of...
把自己的快乐建筑在别人的痛苦上
(Building happiness on others' pain)
sorry...
really sorry....

The Lord of The Rings Symphony---performed by Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra

12.30am.....
First time came back so late.....
luckily the guard didn't stop me when I wanna go in Ilmu....
whew....

Today I follow my bro and others CE students(mostly)to MPO....
MPO---Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra....
really impressive about their performance....
one word--GREAT.....
with the combination of The Young KL Singers and The KL Children's Choir....
the whole performance is more than perfect....
The shocking part was a young boy as the solo...
and the voice came out from his mouth...
is a girl's sound and it's sound so good!!!!
Besides that...
the piccolo soloist--Sonia Croucher
she is so good in playing piccolo...
it's so relax when listening to the music played by her....
and this is the first time I saw in a orchestra...
it used up 2 sets of timpani....
4(1 set)+2(another set)=6 timpanies....
and one more...
the conductor--Markus Huber
he is so handsome!!!
he has conducted The Lord of The Rings Symphony in Canada, Greece, Singapore, Germany and extensively throughout the US, of course in Malaysia too.....
ohya....
we got gift some more...
2 vouchers at New Zealand Natural and 1 RM30 voucher at Risis....

Today I really enjoy the show...
and thanks Dr Chua....
because of him we got the cheap ticket(actual price is RM100++...we get it with only RM10...)


My ticket...Circle Row C Seat 3...a perfect view....^^


The Lord of The Rings Symphony....a great show....

FINISH!!!!

Clock strike 6.30pm.....
I finally finish my physics test 1....
thanks Dr Zolman...
you are really a kind lecturer...
the tips that you gave us really help me a lot....
and the questions is exactly the same as my imagination.....
but some sub-question still not so confident....
let it be la...
the most important thing is I finally finish it....^^

ohya....
before having my physics test 1...
I had my chemistry test 1....
the question in Section B is exactly the same as the exercise that our lecturer gave us....
but the MCQ really make me headache.....
anyway....
I still manage to answer most of the question....
what I studied really use in the test....
whew....

p/s: Udin and the gang, thanks for the "surprise" before I take my physics test because wanna wish my belated birthday....^^

What a mess....

Today I'll face 2 test--physics and chemistry test....
this is the first time I'm having 2 test in one day....
really tiring...
and I really don't know what happen to me...
like last week...
can't concentrate at all.....
but luckily at last I also manage to revise all the topics....
I hope what I've revise will come out in the test....
I really hope to score in Test 1.....
praying.....


After revising...my bed..what a mess...paper all over on it....

Answer for the Kajian Psikologi

Seems like not many people do the test...
nevermind la....
I now post the answer.....

7105--simpan perasaan pada seorang
7800--playboy@playgirl
8561--mengharap untuk disayangi
7906--serik untuk couple
8683--sangat mengharap percintaan
8005--gatal nak kahwin

is it accurate or not is up to you^^

The Doll and A White Rose

Next week is Christmas 2008....
in my hand had a story....
given by my secondary school's teacher....
so since Christmas is coming...
I decided to post it at here....

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I hurried into the local department store to grab some last minute Christmas gifts. I looked at all the people and grumbled to myself.
I would be in here forever and I just had so much to do. Christmas was beginning to become such a drag. I kinda wished that I could just sleep through Christmas. But I hurried the best I ould through all the people to the toy department. Once again I kinda of mumbled to myself at the prices of all these toys. And wondered if the grandkids would even play with them.

I found myself in the doll aisle. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a little boy, about 5, holding a lovely doll. He kept touching her hair and he held her so gently. I could not seem to help myself. I just kept looking over at the little boy and wondered who the doll was for. I watched him turn to a woman, and he called his aunt by name and said,

"Are you sure I don't have enough money?" She replied a bit impatiently, "You know that you don't have enough money for it."

The aunt told the little boy not to go anywhere, that she had to go get some other things and would be back in a few minutes. And then she left the aisle. The boy continued to hold the doll. After a bit I asked the boy who the doll was for. He said, "It its the doll my sister wanted so badly for Christmas. She just knew that Santa would bring it." I told him that maybe Santa was going to bring it. He said, "No, Santa can't go where my sister is. I have to give the doll to my Mamma to take to her."

I asked him where his sister was. He looked at me with the saddest eyes and said, "She has gone to be with Jeses." "My Daddy says that Mama is going to have to go be with her." My heart nearly stopped beating.
Then the boy looked at me again and said, "I told my Daddy to tell Mama not to go yet. I told him to tell her to wait till I got back from the store."
Then he asked me if I wanted to see his picture. I told him I would love to. He pulled out some pictures he had taken at the front of the store.
He said, "I want my Mamma to take this with her so she don't ever forget me." "I love my Mama so much and I wish she did not have to leave me." "But Daddy says she will need to be with my sister."

I saw that the little boy had lowered his head and had frown so very quiet. While he was not looking, I reached into my purse and pulled out a handful of bills. I asked the little boy, "Shall we count that money one more time?" He grew excited and said, "Yes, I just know it has to be enough." So I slipped my money in with his, and we began to count it.

Of course it was plenty for the doll. He softly said, "Thank you, Jesus, for giving me enough money." Then the boy said, "I just asked Jesus to give me enough money to buy this doll, so Mama can take it with her, to give to my sister. And He heard my prayer. I wanted to ask Him for enough to buy my Mama a white rose, but I didn't ask Him, but He gave me enough to buy the doll and a rose for my Mama. She loves white roses so very, very much."

In a few minutes the aunt come back, and I wheeled my cart away. I could not keep thinking about the little boy, as I finished my shopping in a totally different spirit than when I had started.

I kept remembering a story I had seen in the newspaper several days earlier, about a drunk driver hitting a car and killing a little girl, and the Mother was in serious condition. The family was deciding on whether to remove the life support. Now surely this little boy did not belong with that story.

Two days later, I read in the paper where the family had disconnected the life support and the young woman had died. I could not forget the little boy, and just kept wondering if the two were somehow connected.

Later that day, I could not help myself and I went out and bought some white roses and took them to the funeral home, where the young woman was.

And there she was, holding a lovely white rose, the beautiful doll, and the picture of the little boy in the store.

I left there in tears, my life changed forever. The love that little boy had for his little sister and his mother was overwhelming. And in a split second a drunk driver had ripped the life of that little boy to pieces.

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Kajian Psikologi oleh Dato' Fadzilah Kamsah

Yesterday received aisyah's massage.....
and it is a quite interesting kajian....
The question is below...
and I'll post the result after receive enough reply....^^

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Pilih satu kumpulan nombor:
7800, 7105, 8561, 7906, 8683, 8005
pilih satu je....
Ini betul, bukan main-main......

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I've chose...
and believe me...
it's really tepat.....^^

A Story of "Time to Sadness"(Modified)

Suddenly have the inspiration to modified udin's post--A Story of "Time to Love"....
here it goes....

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Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived in.

Happiness, Love, Knowledge and all many others, included Sadness.

One day it was announced to all of them that the island would sink.

Thus, they all prepared boats, and left Sadness, was the only one who stayed.

But when Sadness was almost sinking, she decided to ask for help.

SADNESS : Help!! Help!! Who can help me?!

SADNESS : Richness, could you take me with you?

RICHNESS : No, I can't! There's a lot of gold in my air balloon now. There's no place here for you for $$$$$$$$$$$$...

SADNESS : Love, let me go with you, may I?

LOVE : Oh, Sadness....I wish to help you, but someone is waiting for me...sorry...

SADNESS : Happiness, help! Help me!!

(Happiness was so happy that he didn't listen to Sadness calling him!)

When Sadness was almost giving up asking for help, suddenly there was a voice...

"Come Sadness, I will take you..."

The one who helped her is an elder. Sadness was very happy that she even forgot to ask the elder his name.

When they reached a dry land, the elder went on his own way.

Then Sadness met Knowledge, another elder, asking the name of the elder who had helped her.

KNOWLEDGE : His name is Time.

SADNESS : Time? But why did Time help me?

KNOWLEDGE : Because only Time is capable of understanding how strong is his power to dilute the sadness.

Sadness : Oh...

LET TIME TO DILUTE THE SADNESS AND BRING OUT THE CHEERS

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To my 2 friends(I sure they know who they are):
let the time to do the job....
don't think too much.....
now I believe everything is back to normal again....
^^

Tagged by Udin---About Me

About Me

Five words best describe me:
1. Talkative
2. Helpful
3. Happy-go-lucky
4. Simple
5. Temperamental

Five things that I love to do during weekend:
1. Sleep
2. Eat
3. Sleep
4. Eat
5. Sleep

Five things that I hate about weekend:
1. Too short
2. Boring
3. Boring
4. Boring
5. Boring

My five favourite past time:
1. Sleep
2. Eat
3. Read storybooks
4. Play piano
5. Listen music

My five most-loved people:
1. Dad
2. Mum
3. Sis
4. Bro
5. All my family members

Five things that I always dream off:
1. Having my own grand piano and alto saxophone
2. Right beside my parents forever
3. Travel around the world
4. Having excellent result as my bro
5. Having a boyfriend that love me so much

My five most important gadgets:
1. Watch
2. Laptop
3. Handphone
4. Piano
5. Stationery(Stabilo Colour Pen)

Five people I wanna tag:
1. Iefa
2. Arm
3. Zul
4. All the people in my blog list
5. The person that reading this post---yes, that's you^^

The Battle is on.....

I know the battle is on....
but seems like only 2 people involve in the battle is not so exciting...
actually now is accidentally online.....
because before this the line only can open Frienster in my laptop...
after changing to my dad's school laptop...
boleh pulak....
is it my laptop problem??(to udin: don't say buang my laptop again har....or esle....hehehehe...you know what I mean....see you on your blog's comment....)
hmmmm....
now still wondering.....

Tomorrow going back to Uniten...
although just a few days staying at my home....
but really satisfied....
for a person that away from home about 1 month....
besides that.....
during x'mas day....
I can come back again....
In conclusion....
my mood=happyx100......^^

What am I doing??

Tomorrow is our calculus test 1....
everybody is busy studying....
but what am I doing??
why I can't concentrate in my study??
why I can't focus at all??
why I still not realize the importance of test 1??
why??
why??
why??
arghhhh......
the whole day is going to pass....
and I still stuck at there.....
no progress at all.....
sorry for all my friends here.....
I'm going too offline.....
because onlining really cause a lots of problem to me.....
so....
see you guys later.....

Its Us.....

Attacking people's blog....
unbelievable....
really fun....
hahahaha.....

I also don't how it begins....
we just post comment on each other blog....
that's all....
then we begin to attack his blog....
hahahaha.....

so he said he will take revenge....
then I will wait and see what kind of revenge that he said....
let's us wait and see.....
^^

The Thing that makes me really mad.....

As the day going on.....
and this is the second month of 2nd sem.....
many things happen in this 2nd sem...
but the only thing that makes me really mad....
really really mad is....
the Indian and Chinese classmates(all are guys).....

I really don't know where is there moral values that they have learn since they are a child.....
not me wanna critics my own races...
but please....
the Chinese guys in my class....
I know the lecturer is not good...
but as a student....
just listen to him.....
is it so difficult just to listen to the lecture while keep your mouth shut??
and where is the moral values that you learn since you just a child??
尊师重道
that is "respect the teacher and revere his/her teaching"....
do you still remember???
礼仪廉耻
that is "the sense of shame and etiquette"...
do you still remember???

so please.....
the noise in the class while the lecture is going on...
it is really annoying...
and I don't like it...
really hate it.....
so please be quite la.....
haiz~

Girls and Guys Fact...

My friend post this on my Friendster's bulletin...
quite interesting...
so I decide to repost it at my blog...
believe it or not...
it is up to you...^^

Girl facts**

when a girl is mean to you after a break-up

she wants you back but she is too

scared she'll get hurt and knows

you're gone forever!

.

when you catch a girl glancing at you,

she wants you to look back

and smile

.

When a girl bumps into your arm,

while walking with you

she wants

you to hold her hand

.

When she wants a hug

she will just stand there

.

When u break a girls heart

she still feels it when

you run into each other 3 years later

.

When a girl is quiet,

millions of things are running through her

mind..

.

When a girl is not arguing,

she is thinking deeply,,

.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of

questions,

she is wondering how long you will be

around

.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a

few seconds,

SHE IS NOT FINE AT ALL

.

When a girl stares at you,

she is wondering why you are playing games

.

When a girl lays her head on your chest,

she is wishing for you to be hers forever

.

When a girl says she can't live

without you,

she has made up her mind that you are

her future

.

When a girl says, "I miss you,"

no one in this world can miss you more

than that

.

.

Guy Facts---

.

When a guy calls you,

he wants to be with you

.

When a guy is quiet,

He's listening to you...

.

When a guy is not arguing,

He realizes he's wrong

.

When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few

minutes

he means it

.

When a guy stares at you,

he wishes you would care about him and

wonders if you do

.

When your laying your head on a guy's

chest,

he has the world

.

When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,

he is in love

.

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,

he means it

.

When a guy says he can't live without you,

he's with you till your done

.

When a guy says, "I miss you,"

he misses you more than you could have

ever missed him or anything else

Plan of Ilmu Apartment....

From 11.00am until now.....
plus yesterday a few hours before I went to bed....
nearly one day...
I finally finished drawing the plan of Ilmu Apartment...
a quite tiring work....
my neck until now still not so comfortable....
because of my carelessness....
I done a lot of mistake...
and have to erase and erase again....
but finally I also be able to finish it...
whew....

Here's my final "product"....using about 5 A4 paper....^^

Damn Tired....=_=""

As I'm being chosen by my senior to draw the plan of Ilmu Apartment....
I've no choice but to follow his instruction as I'm the one of the AJK of ICE(Institute of Civil Engineers)....
and today I begin to draw the plan...
but I don't know what happen to me....
just a simple plan I repeated 3 times....
and this is because I draw wrongly for the first two plan...
arghhhh.....
my eyes now really wanna pop out already....
really tired now....
and I only complete one of the block.....
tomorrow have to spend one whole day(maybe)to complete it.....
haiz~


first drawing....scale too big and draw wrongly....too many staircase....


second drawing....still didn't realize my mistake....still too many staircase....and happily coloured it.....thought finally finish one block....but then....


third drawing....finally it is correct...but a bit dirty because no mood already.....
(p/s: this drawing still wrong because there are only 8 apartments in I6.....today just realise it.....8/12/2008)

Really tiring....but I'll finish it and make it as clear as possible.....

China View

Don't know why...
feel like wanna post these pix on my blog....
these are the photos that my parents took when they go vacation to china...
really nice.....^^


Beautiful tree and bridge....great view....taken by my dad....


Flowers bloom....


With the sunset....this pix really beautiful....

Miss my Piano....

1 month didn't go back my hometown...
miss my parents...
miss my bed...
miss my mum's cook....
and of course...
I really miss my piano....

since I was 7 years old...
my parents had sent me to learn piano...
at that time...
I just follow my sis's and my bro's footstep...
and I not really know what is piano all about....
2 years as my piano basic....
it's quite a long time...
everybody is so shock when I told them....
and taking ABRSM examination.....
some of them jump grade....
but again....
I'm the one who go up step by step....
finish Grade1 continue Grade 2...
finish Grade 2 continue Grade 3.....
and so on....
finally at Form 4, I finished my Grade 8 piano practical....
it was such a release...
because when I was at about Grade 6 or Grade 7....
I got the feeling like I wanna give up already...
because it is getting tougher and tougher....
but when I since join my school wind band...
I totally change...
I totally like music very much and begin to love music...
now music is really part of my life...
I really cannot imagine my life without music....
but such a pity...
I did't finish my piano theory....
only until Grade 7....
because when I was in Form 3, I decided to stop for 1 year because of PMR....
but now I regret already...
haiz~
actually I don't like theory so much....
and I haven't confirm with my piano teacher whether I pass Grade 7 Theory exam or not....
almost 1 year already...
and I haven't confirm yet...
honestly I'm afriad that I hear the news that I fail my Grade 7 Theory....
hmmmm......
if got free time, I'll go back to find my piano teacher....
and....
one more thing....
thanks Miss Selina Tan....
she is my piano teacher and she is the one who teach me piano from the very beginning until I finishe my Grade 8.....
and she is a great piano teacher....
although she is very strict....
Thank you, Miss Selina Tan!!!

Here is the pix of my piano at home....miss it so much....

What should I do?

Just now saw his comment....
honestly....
really sad....
why shouldn't him just speak out his mind?
why shouldn't him just say whatever he wants?
I don't mind actually....
I'm a straight forward person...
I can receive all the critics....
although sometimes really hurt....
but I can accept it.....
and I like all the people I know just speak out how they feel and correct me whenever I done something wrong....
I don't mind.....
really....

I have sent him an email....
I don't know when he will see it.....
inside that email I've explain to him everything....
as we cannot turn back the time....
the only thing we can do is looking forward....
I'm hoping for a better day....
is he also think like that?

To Izham(arm)....

To arm,

Suddenly feel like wanna post something for you.....
don't know why....
hahaha....
before this I don't really know you....
first time know(actually is finally remember....)your name was when we went to Mid Valley together....
that time we also not too close...
but again...
don't know why when we come to 2nd sem....
we really clicked...
because I finally found someone who loves to read so many story books....
really hard to find you know?
and when I was down...
when I was unhappy...
when I was on the verge of breaking down....
when I was so upset....
and many many more....
just a few days time....
I feel your kindness and your friendship.....
really appreciate it....
really....
I'm so lucky......
before this is udin....
now is you....
Best friend is hard to find...
but I found it....^^

Your regards,
heqing
posted 2/12/2008

All Coming....@_@

Quizzes and Tests....
all coming in one row....
yesterday and today I just finished my calculus and physics quiz....
tomorrow I'll having my chemistry quiz....
next week....
although so many holidays....
still cannot enjoy....
Monday holiday...
but Tuesday I'll having my calculus and physics quiz again....
then next Friday having my calculus Test 1....
all the things are like avalanche....
nonstop and cannot stop.....
now is the time to quicken up my steps....
too many works have to be done....
too many works have to be reviced....
but I'll still update my blog....
let you all know how is my life going on....

See ya....^^

Weird...

Although it's nothing already....
but I have a weird feeling....
there is a wall between us...
before this there is nothing that make me feel like this.....
but now....
I really don't know he have that feeling or not....
maybe not...
maybe yes....
if we meet we cannot talk like before....
anything can talk...
anything can chat....
but now....

Maybe like my friend said....
让时间冲淡一切
is like "let time dilute all the unhappiness....."
this is the only thing that I can do...
I really need him as my best friend....
really need someone that I can talk with...
really need someone that I can chat with....
really need someone that can listen to me....
really need someone that can help me....
I found it....
but will it last longer?